i don't feel so good tonight. i been at the old house for maybe a coupla hours, and i just want to go 'home' - to my nice new place.
it's already 'home'!
my chest feels tickly, and a bit tight now, and it was FINE before i got here.
two nights sleeping at the new place, and my breathing has gotten waayyy better.
i come here for a coupla hours, i feel like crap.
i can't wait to be done with this place.
Saturday, February 17, 2007
painting
well, i painted at the banquet last night, first time in a looooong time i've really painted anything artistically (text on banners doesn't count, lol!).... and it went well. i actually enjoyed it. *gasp*
the problem with me and art has been that he's been so pushy and snobbish of late....
*kidding*
the problem with me and art is that it is so emotional for me i wind up wanting to hack the piece up shortly after starting. last night it was like that for a little while, then it got better.
it doesn't usually get better! usually just worse.
so i think God's doing a healing there. since last night i've just wanted to paint and paint and paint!!!!!! lol.... but i have no canvasses at my new home yet.
maybe i will tonight...... ;)
i think the picture, a lady smiling (the 'bride of Christ' i wondered? ie. us?) was actually kinda prophetic for me.... cuz i actually came to a place of enjoying painting, and wanting to do it!
i had thought, what rotten timing, the same weekend as i'm moving... but last night as i was roaming around my as yet relatively empty home - nay, *dancing* around it - i realized i think it was God's way of showing me what His priorities were for me in my new home, my new life.
so it's going to be my studio/desert island - i can only bring what i would bring to a desert island, and nothing else.
well, i might be a *wee* bit more relaxed on that... but not much. i won't have the room for it!
the problem with me and art has been that he's been so pushy and snobbish of late....
*kidding*
the problem with me and art is that it is so emotional for me i wind up wanting to hack the piece up shortly after starting. last night it was like that for a little while, then it got better.
it doesn't usually get better! usually just worse.
so i think God's doing a healing there. since last night i've just wanted to paint and paint and paint!!!!!! lol.... but i have no canvasses at my new home yet.
maybe i will tonight...... ;)
i think the picture, a lady smiling (the 'bride of Christ' i wondered? ie. us?) was actually kinda prophetic for me.... cuz i actually came to a place of enjoying painting, and wanting to do it!
i had thought, what rotten timing, the same weekend as i'm moving... but last night as i was roaming around my as yet relatively empty home - nay, *dancing* around it - i realized i think it was God's way of showing me what His priorities were for me in my new home, my new life.
so it's going to be my studio/desert island - i can only bring what i would bring to a desert island, and nothing else.
well, i might be a *wee* bit more relaxed on that... but not much. i won't have the room for it!
Friday, February 16, 2007
talk about SWEAT!
man i worked hard last night. i packed up all my daily needs stuff and moved them to the new place BY MYSELF. when i opened the door to take the stuff out to the car it was POURING - i did it anyways. i was not going to spend another night breathing moldy air if i didn't have to!
what i took: a box of food, a box of cutlery/dishes etc, a laundry basket of clothes, a basket full of towels and hangers and such, my fireplace heater, a box of toiletries, my cd player.
i arrived with all this stuff at the new place about 10pm, unpacked everything but the fireplace, and was in bed by midnight.
i slept better than i have in ages, except for a headache.
today i unpacked the fireplace, and came to the old place to pack up some more stuff - food, dishes, pots and pans, laundry hamper full of clean clothes, and do to some laundry. i have about three hours to get all this stuff unpacked before i need to get ready for the dinner tonight, so i should boogie.
i'm utterly exhausted, but i feel good overall. but if i keep going this hard i'll prolly burn out so i need to be careful.
what i took: a box of food, a box of cutlery/dishes etc, a laundry basket of clothes, a basket full of towels and hangers and such, my fireplace heater, a box of toiletries, my cd player.
i arrived with all this stuff at the new place about 10pm, unpacked everything but the fireplace, and was in bed by midnight.
i slept better than i have in ages, except for a headache.
today i unpacked the fireplace, and came to the old place to pack up some more stuff - food, dishes, pots and pans, laundry hamper full of clean clothes, and do to some laundry. i have about three hours to get all this stuff unpacked before i need to get ready for the dinner tonight, so i should boogie.
i'm utterly exhausted, but i feel good overall. but if i keep going this hard i'll prolly burn out so i need to be careful.
Thursday, February 15, 2007
crazy day
well...... i'm frazzled. well, no i'm not - frazzled suggests 'lost peace' in a way, and i'm feeling great in that regards. i've just been boogieing all day and i'm exhausted, and the end of my day is nowhere in sight!
i got my air mattress and sleeping bags and camp chairs all set up in the new place, but when i saw all the mold stains on my air mattress, i decided, it's a goner. i have to go get a new one now, cuz this one is in the dumpster. i'd never sleep, wondering if there was mold still growing on it!
i've done so much today, at least for *me*... others may have gotten a lot more done in one day than i have, but for me it's been a MASSIVE day. here's a couple highlights:
i went to the liquor store BY MYSELF. i would never have gone in there on my own before! but i did today! .... for empty boxes, by the way! :P
i knocked on four peoples doors, unexpectedly. talk about bold, for me!
went and got the keys from my new landlords! (wonderful folk!)
and i am halfway ready to 'camp-out' at the new place tonight!!!!!!
.....on top of that, i've fellowshipped with three friends, written in my blog, gone shopping for a few things (only $0.15 left on my save-on gift card!), and asked my uncle for gas money.
yay God for the change in me!!!!!! You ROCK!!!!!! whooooot!!!!!!
i got my air mattress and sleeping bags and camp chairs all set up in the new place, but when i saw all the mold stains on my air mattress, i decided, it's a goner. i have to go get a new one now, cuz this one is in the dumpster. i'd never sleep, wondering if there was mold still growing on it!
i've done so much today, at least for *me*... others may have gotten a lot more done in one day than i have, but for me it's been a MASSIVE day. here's a couple highlights:
i went to the liquor store BY MYSELF. i would never have gone in there on my own before! but i did today! .... for empty boxes, by the way! :P
i knocked on four peoples doors, unexpectedly. talk about bold, for me!
went and got the keys from my new landlords! (wonderful folk!)
and i am halfway ready to 'camp-out' at the new place tonight!!!!!!
.....on top of that, i've fellowshipped with three friends, written in my blog, gone shopping for a few things (only $0.15 left on my save-on gift card!), and asked my uncle for gas money.
yay God for the change in me!!!!!! You ROCK!!!!!! whooooot!!!!!!
9 am captivation
9 a.m.
8+ hours sleep, yet slept through the radio alarm for an hour and a half. half asleep, yet fully in dreamland, i'm listening to cbc radio talk about hospitals dealing with the issue of C-difficile bacteria, how they deal with it janitorially, and i'm seeing it in full living color..... janitors sweeping strong industrial bleach across floors in blue jackets, tiles crumbling if the solution is too strong.... and feeling mildly appalled that they still only bleach a couple times a day!.......
the phone rings, and i swing out my heavy lead arm, and overshoot the phone and whack my hand on the book... my mouth is dry, my chest is tight, throat is raw, the light is too bright. i feel nauseous, from hunger, but probably also the thought of all those chemicals! when i get the phone to my head, my voice croaks when i say hello, and my tongue doesn't want to shape the words.
my dear friend, calling to ask me to pray for her son who is sick today.
so i do. dry tongue and all. (talk about being instant in season and out!?!) ....when i finish it seemed a bit short, but i had no more words, so it was done.
(grace for my dry tongue?!)
and my friend says, 'you know one of the things i love about you, lynne? is we can always talk about God. it's like you never get tired of talking about Him, and that's so cool'.....
....never get tired of talking about Him....
i never do. it's the way it should be... He is the captivator of our hearts, the One who makes life worth living. He is EVERYTHING.
it's so interesting to me that it stands out as a character trait in a christian.... as tho it's unusual. as tho most people treat Him as one of many possible conversation topics. as tho our awareness of His presence and sovereignty and dealings in our life can be turned on or off as we choose.
i think it's really sad. and i think God thinks its really sad. the limited degree to which i feel grieved in my spirit about it must be amplified greatly in God's heart!
thank You for captivating my heart, Lord, for captivating my mind. You are captivating!
8+ hours sleep, yet slept through the radio alarm for an hour and a half. half asleep, yet fully in dreamland, i'm listening to cbc radio talk about hospitals dealing with the issue of C-difficile bacteria, how they deal with it janitorially, and i'm seeing it in full living color..... janitors sweeping strong industrial bleach across floors in blue jackets, tiles crumbling if the solution is too strong.... and feeling mildly appalled that they still only bleach a couple times a day!.......
the phone rings, and i swing out my heavy lead arm, and overshoot the phone and whack my hand on the book... my mouth is dry, my chest is tight, throat is raw, the light is too bright. i feel nauseous, from hunger, but probably also the thought of all those chemicals! when i get the phone to my head, my voice croaks when i say hello, and my tongue doesn't want to shape the words.
my dear friend, calling to ask me to pray for her son who is sick today.
so i do. dry tongue and all. (talk about being instant in season and out!?!) ....when i finish it seemed a bit short, but i had no more words, so it was done.
(grace for my dry tongue?!)
and my friend says, 'you know one of the things i love about you, lynne? is we can always talk about God. it's like you never get tired of talking about Him, and that's so cool'.....
....never get tired of talking about Him....
i never do. it's the way it should be... He is the captivator of our hearts, the One who makes life worth living. He is EVERYTHING.
it's so interesting to me that it stands out as a character trait in a christian.... as tho it's unusual. as tho most people treat Him as one of many possible conversation topics. as tho our awareness of His presence and sovereignty and dealings in our life can be turned on or off as we choose.
i think it's really sad. and i think God thinks its really sad. the limited degree to which i feel grieved in my spirit about it must be amplified greatly in God's heart!
thank You for captivating my heart, Lord, for captivating my mind. You are captivating!
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
energirrhea?
well, i musta ate something that POISONED me, cuz whatever it is, it's hightailin' it outta me.... but a oxymoronic side effect of being sick in this way, at least today, is some ENERGY (i was soooo drowsy, practically falling asleep sitting up, earlier today before all this started!!!!)..... i've got laundry in; two sinks full of (oxygen) bleach, soap and yucky dishes; my floor is cleared (albeit not yet swept); AND i washed the top of the stove and put in new burner-liner-thingys (they were nasty after my pot blowout episode a coupla days ago).....
all this betwixt trots to the washroom.....
what a WEIRD day!
hope it's more normalized by cell time tonight! :P
all this betwixt trots to the washroom.....
what a WEIRD day!
hope it's more normalized by cell time tonight! :P
God sent!
ROFL ROFL ROFL!!!!!
not 5 minutes after i finished posting my last post (and decided to get up and out of this lonely house!) i had just finished strippin' and i heard a motor outside so i went and peeked and it was carrie!!!!!! so i threw my shirt on and ran downstairs and answered the door in my undershorts (yes, they are *shorts*) and she gave me a BIG HUG and i started bawling.... she had a valentines card for me with two wineglasses on it and a heart.... God gave her the words for it, and it says, "Cheers! God's love is like this glass, but his glass is overlowing with love just for you."
so now i'm typing this and my mouth is full of after 8's she'd stuffed in the envelope and i feel NO LONELY NO MORE!@!!!!!!! whoooot!
thank Ya, Jesus!!!!!!!!!!!!!
not 5 minutes after i finished posting my last post (and decided to get up and out of this lonely house!) i had just finished strippin' and i heard a motor outside so i went and peeked and it was carrie!!!!!! so i threw my shirt on and ran downstairs and answered the door in my undershorts (yes, they are *shorts*) and she gave me a BIG HUG and i started bawling.... she had a valentines card for me with two wineglasses on it and a heart.... God gave her the words for it, and it says, "Cheers! God's love is like this glass, but his glass is overlowing with love just for you."
so now i'm typing this and my mouth is full of after 8's she'd stuffed in the envelope and i feel NO LONELY NO MORE!@!!!!!!! whoooot!
thank Ya, Jesus!!!!!!!!!!!!!
valentines
i'm missing mommy and now i'm ticked off cuz i can't printscreen copy an image from moms slide show dvd- i get a video playing in paint! garrrrrrrrr! i save it and it's a blank black image and i hate it!!!!! garertrrrrrlsdfkjseej
/rant.
feeling decidedly lonely right now. doesn't help that i've been awake since 7:30 and feel gross and headachey and sorethroaty and wanting out of this moldy house pdq!!!!!
/rant 2.
:'(
/rant.
feeling decidedly lonely right now. doesn't help that i've been awake since 7:30 and feel gross and headachey and sorethroaty and wanting out of this moldy house pdq!!!!!
/rant 2.
:'(
Tuesday, February 13, 2007
cell phone pics galore
i likes these pics~!:
voila, look upwards and you look like a model!
well, kinda, lol!
voila, look upwards and you look like a model!
well, kinda, lol!
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