i Yam a Blue Yam Tonite

aaam i bluuuuuueeee...? yup. i yam a bit blue tonight.

... i got into a bit of a tiff with someone on some forums, becuase i got cranky.... i got cranky at/on/to a person who rubs me the wrong way.

it wasn't right to get mad. i apologized. it's done.

but at the same time i'm frusterated.... why, oh why, do we have personalities that just don't mesh sometimes? why is it that a person can seem SO rude.... and while everyone else successfully ignores it, i can't?

i think it comes down to having a flesh nature, having old war wounds, and maybe being the sensitive, polite canadian that i am. ;)

God always allows pricking to occur in an area we need to work on, doesn't He? and i know a huge area for me is rejection. if i feel like someone's mocking me, watch out. if i feel like someone's putting me down, watch out.

i am thankful that God uses friends - and potential friends - to mold me, shape me, polish me.... as iron sharpens iron.... i'm thankful, even tho it's not fun.

today i was sick, spent the whole day sprawled out in front of the computator.... maybe i been online too long, cuz i'm drained, mentally, emotionally..... i feel a bit messed. i don't seem to be able to extend grace towards others when i feel like this.

and that's how He brings us to Himself - we run dry, we come to Him. He redeems even a dreary day like today. oh, how i love my Jesus.

time to go spend some time at His feet!