9 am captivation

9 a.m.

8+ hours sleep, yet slept through the radio alarm for an hour and a half. half asleep, yet fully in dreamland, i'm listening to cbc radio talk about hospitals dealing with the issue of C-difficile bacteria, how they deal with it janitorially, and i'm seeing it in full living color..... janitors sweeping strong industrial bleach across floors in blue jackets, tiles crumbling if the solution is too strong.... and feeling mildly appalled that they still only bleach a couple times a day!.......

the phone rings, and i swing out my heavy lead arm, and overshoot the phone and whack my hand on the book... my mouth is dry, my chest is tight, throat is raw, the light is too bright. i feel nauseous, from hunger, but probably also the thought of all those chemicals! when i get the phone to my head, my voice croaks when i say hello, and my tongue doesn't want to shape the words.

my dear friend, calling to ask me to pray for her son who is sick today.

so i do. dry tongue and all. (talk about being instant in season and out!?!) ....when i finish it seemed a bit short, but i had no more words, so it was done.

(grace for my dry tongue?!)

and my friend says, 'you know one of the things i love about you, lynne? is we can always talk about God. it's like you never get tired of talking about Him, and that's so cool'.....

....never get tired of talking about Him....

i never do. it's the way it should be... He is the captivator of our hearts, the One who makes life worth living. He is EVERYTHING.

it's so interesting to me that it stands out as a character trait in a christian.... as tho it's unusual. as tho most people treat Him as one of many possible conversation topics. as tho our awareness of His presence and sovereignty and dealings in our life can be turned on or off as we choose.

i think it's really sad. and i think God thinks its really sad. the limited degree to which i feel grieved in my spirit about it must be amplified greatly in God's heart!

thank You for captivating my heart, Lord, for captivating my mind. You are captivating!