a night of deep thinking

wow. it's almost 1 am, and i been musing and writing about God with a friend for prolly 2 hours... i need to get to bed, but here's a snippet of my thoughts:

i guess the jist of my trouble is this: i see that God is omnipotent and IS doing miracles - as He sees fit... and i surely don't see even an nth of what He's doing!!!! so any 'suggestion' that God is 'unable' because of my 'lack' of faith rubs me the wrong way. i am unable, that's for sure. i'm limited. my faith is not where i'd like it to be. but it's enough for Him to move mountains. for HIM to move them, not me. and He IS moving them. He doesn't need my help. and how He's moving even now awes me. so why do i need to cry out to Him to do miracles when He already is? but so many people seem blind to what He IS doing, and cry out, God, show Your power like You used to..... and i feel a grieving that we do not see what He IS doing! and not glorifying Him for it, for the rich meal He has laid out in front of us RIGHT NOW, if we would only see it with our eternal eyes, instead of begging for a few crumbs of dinners past....

Perhaps i see the temporal as but a shadow and a type of the spiritual. a physical dead-raising is merely a shadow of the spiritual resurrection going on anytime someone gets saved. a temporal healing is but a type of the greater spiritual healing He does in our hearts all the time.

so why cry out for God to do the shadows and types, when we have the real thing?