i will trust You, Lord

i know that i know that i know
that i asked for only Your heart--

nothing from within me-
my hopes or desires-
but only Your heart.

nothing from outside me-
the world or the enemy-
but only Your heart.

nothing from inside me-
flesh or rebellion-
but only Your heart.

nothing from outside me-
lies or distraction-
but only Your heart.

i know that i know that i know
that i asked You to filter out these things
and give me ONLY Your heart--

so i will trust that You gave me
--ONLY--

Your heart-
and not a lie.

a loaf of bread-
and not a stone.

a fish-
and not a serpent.

an egg-
and not a scorpion.

Your Spirit-
and no principality or power other than You.

for if i cannot trust Your Word-
if i cannot trust Your sovereignty-
if i cannot trust Your mercy and grace-

then--

i cannot trust You.

--but i have to trust You.
--life is nothing without You.
--i am nothing without You.
--nothing is worth believing except You.

so i WILL believe You--

believe in Your Word-
believe in Your sovereignty-
and believe in Your mercy and grace.

and i WILL NOT believe--

the doubts of the enemy-
that You heart is not true.

the lies of the enemy-
that he can beat You.

the arrogance of the enemy-
that he can fool even You.

the doubts of the enemy-
that i can't trust You.

therefore--
i will trust You, Lord--
You, and You alone.