i hz oweez

i gots me an owie on my leg. i think either a bug bite or a zit got infected and it is puffy and red. i put some peroxide and a sticky bandage over it to try to draw out whatever is in there.... hopefully it'll clear up on its own.

i just listened to my phone messages - 5! - and among them was one from the sleep apnea testing place in PG, saying i had tested positive for obstructive sleep apnea, and have a prescription for CPAP therapy, which is a machine that blows air into your nose to keep your airways open.

yay.

but seriously, it is good news, cuz if therapy works, i should be less sleepy and tired.

a bit of zoo for yoo

one of my favorite movies, hilarious~!

i love how they did this preview:

someone did this, and it's hilarious!


alternate end credits, i like this version of this song:

oh golly, this one makes it look like a drama, ha!

hallelujah hippo!

There is a joy which is not given to the ungodly,
But to those who love Thee for Thine own sake,
Whose joy Thou Thyself art.

And this is the happy life,
To rejoice to Thee,
Of Thee,
For Thee;
This it is,
And there is no other.

-- St. Augustine of Hippo

wow

wednesday..... i spent three hours at the hospy with tan.... from 11pm till 2 am. after a pretty full day.

thursday.... i was supposed to babysit... but i got there 25 minutes late, cuz i just couldn't drag my sorry tush outta bed, then when i got up - and normally would be able to get ready in that amount of time - i couldn't move faster than oatmeal sliding down a wall..... so i was late. no one was home, alternate plans had been made.

ouch, failure. i hate letting people down!

so i went and got breakfast and sat in the park.... and fell asleep in the car. first for a solid hour, then continually dozing off uncontrollably. finally i got a hold of pammy and she let me come over and crash on her couch. i drove the half-block to where she was (a/c blowing in my face full on, loud music, to keep me awake, i wouldn't even have tried driving anywhere any farther away!) and slept on her couch until late afternoon. i guzzled coffee, and tried to stay awake, but i just kept falling asleep. uncontrollably. until shortly before dinner.

therein lie the wow.

friday.... today. i was supposed to be at carolyns at 9:30, but i could not wake up. so now i'm going to be there for 11..... please, Lord, get me there, today! and get me to the wedding on time, tomorrow!!!!!

****

tans had some more developments on her hip condition.... family, read her recent entry, k? she's needin some love right now.....

love ya lots, tan-tan!!!!! i'll try to stop by later, Lord willin'! (((((hugs)))))

christian flowers

Christians are like the flowers in a garden, that have each of
them the dew of Heaven, which, being shaken with the wind, they
let fall at each other's roots, whereby they are jointly
nourished, and become nourishers of each other.

-- John Bunyan

prayer

The Elements of Prayer

Its ground: God, by whose goodness it springeth in us.
Its use: to turn our will to His will.
Its end: to be made one with Him and like to Him in all things.

-- Julian of Norwich

movie music

just watched the life aquatic with steve zissou - fun movie!

anyways, there was some kewl music on it, here's a samplin'...

i would drive 500 km

and i did! and i would drive 500 more iffn i got the opportunity to. i drove a friend to pick up her hubby from camp at Bob Quinn Lake! BEAUTIFUL.

i almost passed out when i realized how close we were getting to mt edziza provincial park - my dream voyage. i felt amazed that God would let me get so 'close' to it, so to speak. like He planned it. of course.

passed a crushed car that evidently ran into something on stilts - the top of the car was more damaged than the front - like a moose or deer maybe. whoever's car it was was in good enough shape to park it on the side of the road and leave the hazards on before they abandonded it (got a ride?), so i'm thankful that they are (presumeably) ok!

we got into kitwanga on fumes, and had to stay there four hours until the gas station opened at 7am. overall, a 14 hour trip, 10 of those driving. great weekend!!!!

love those spontaneous trips!

anybody need a ride? lol :)

i love this song

after exploring a bit, had to add a couple more from gnarls barkley.

a coupla wedding songs

ok, so four songs. while looking for a youtube of captain and tenille's "Wedding Song (There is Love)", i came across these:

(the song i was looking for, but by a different artist)






and ruth, i think you'll like this one~!


wonder why these are appealing to me tonight.... maybe cuz i'll be going to two weddings this summer? lol

For Debbie, from her wee minstrel

Along Came Jones

(the version i remember, by the coasters)


May the Bird of Paradise Fly Up Your Nose

(again, the version i remember, but i don't know who by)


Dead Skunk in the middle of the road

(louden wainwrite III)

vision

this ministers to me tonight.

God gives us the vision, then He takes us down to the valley to batter us into the shape of the vision, and it is in the valley that so many of us faint and give way. Every vision will be made real if we will have patience. Think of the enormous leisure of God! He is never in a hurry. We are always in such a frantic hurry. In the light of the glory of the vision we go forth to do things, but the vision is not real in us yet; and God has to take us into the valley, and put us through fires and floods to batter us into shape, until we get to the place where He can trust us with the veritable reality. Ever since we had the vision God has been at work, getting us into the shape of the ideal, and over and over again we escape from His hand and try to batter ourselves into our own shape.

from today's my utmost for His highest, oswald chambers. more here.

sweet

love her voice, gonna go get her album soon!

TT #6

i am thankful for neighbours i love.
for opportunities to be playing me gueetar whilst me friend is weeding in her garden.
for songs, ladybugs, and ladybug songs.
canned tuna, and whole wheat tortillas to wrap it in.
for kakuro and sudoku.
cool houses during hot weather.
healing after sunburns.
kids.
indoor plumbing.
memories of my mom.
phones, land line or cellular.
farts. ooh, baby!

the challenges of late

hmm. so i haven't been blogging much lately.... i haven't been doing too much really. i'm tired, and sleeping a fair bit. but i'm not allowing myself to beat myself up for it, either, cuz there appears to be a reason for it.

my doc thinks i have sleep apnea.... where you stop breathing in your sleep..... so you wake up over and over and over again, your blood oxygen level goes down, and your sleep is very poor. as a result, during the day, you're very tired and unrested, your brain is fogged from lack of sleep, and there can be other problems too.

last weekend i did a home test with a portable pulse oximeter, where you clip a measuring thingy on the end of your finger and it reads - and records - both your blood oxygen level and your heart rate.

surprising thing to me was how my heartbeat was all over the place! very little regularity... i thought our heartbeat was supposed to be somewhat regular, at least! when i was at rest, it would flash green with every heartbeat, as it's supposed to. as soon as i moved around in bed, to turn over, adjust my pillow, or got up for a trip to the bathroom, it would get very irregular, flash orange, triple beat, or even stop entirely for a few seconds.

oh dear.

so up comes the whole 'fear of death' thing.

#1 - God planned the day of my death (which is only a leaving of the mortal realm and going to be in the presence of God fully, whoo hoo!!!!!) BEFORE THE FOUNDATION OF THE WORLD.

gotta remember that one!!!!!

#2 - am i going to look at my circumstances, or am i going to fix my eyes on what God has said - and believe THAT - regardless of how things look?!?

gotta remember that one, too!

ain't nothing can change God's plans for me. those are no 'wishful thinking' plans, that God would 'like' to do in my life, but His hands are tied, depending on the whims of the enemy - no, those are the plans and purposes from BEFORE THE FOUNDATION OF THE WORLD of an OMNIPOTENT GOD! far above all other principalities and powers! there is no preempting them! no matter how things 'look'!

so nothing has changed - if God wants to bring me home tomorrow, He will - and if He wants to take me out in 70 years, nothing can change that, flip-flopping heart or not!

where do i want to be, anyways? do i not yearn to be with Him, with no encumbrances such as a mortal body in the way? YES!

when i saw that heartbeat-flash stop - and yes, my heart had stopped, i checked, and i could feel the stillness - for several seconds, did i feel dread? no..... it was bated excitement - i was like, could it be? is it time, Lord? then it starts beating again, and i'm like, oh. ok, i'm still here, for the time being. i'll keep on keepin' on, Lord.

in the meantime, God has a purpose for me being so tired. in some way, shape or form, i am in training. it may not look like it to the world, but i am a warrior. He is training my hands for war and my fingers for battle.

now my fingers need to attack and go turn off the dumb tv. the news ended, and some dumb soap opera is making me laugh.... i have to stop it!

ciao for now!