Tuesday, May 22, 2007

a day of firsts

i had my first experience with doing laundry in a washer that is *outdoors*! .... and drying *all* my laundry on a clothesline.

and for the first time i put oil, coolant, and power steering fluid in the car. i musta done not toooo bad, cuz the car still runs, lol.

oh, and i guess you could say this is the first day of the year that i've gotten a LOT of sun..... i hope i don't burn!

house is on, i dig that show, cya.....

Monday, May 21, 2007

a different beautiful day

a week or two ago.....

it really is a beautiful day

everyday! why?

because You are my everything, Jesus!!!!!

an amazing two days....

first off, church yesterday echoed so much of what has been in my heart, bang bang, confirmation. i love it when that happens. God is good.

secondly, my piano was evidently not heard in the congregation.... that's good, cuz i didn't play that great, lol.

then i had a long relaxing afternoon at tan's, cut some hair, looked for a awol kiddo, and ate the bestest chilli ever!

then i visited pammy, and she came over and we had a slumber party, went for a walk, sang God songs until the wee hour of 11pm (ha), and yakked until close to 3.... then snored in harmony until 'bout 11am. whoo hoo! thank You Lord, for the convenience of air mattresses!

then today i spent some time at pammy's, and went for TWO walks with her (i have a whopping 7310 steps on my pedometer thus far! who'da thunk?) and got lots of vitamin D.

then mon unk and ma taunt (sp? (mickie?!) lol) gived me a twenty so i could get some milk and cereal and cream cheese ( a necessity in my fridge!) and some dish soap. thank You LORD!!!!!

now i'm at home in my homey home and typing on me blog and thinking i need to take a picture of something.....

an interesting reflection and shadow on my wall......

but what of?

reflected sunlight casting a shadow of my funny hand made felted grinning bunny. i wuv my mr. bunnikins!!!!! ha!!!! so does my mom, in the picture behind, she looks like she's gonna kiss his wittle footsie!!!!

rofl! what a great day this has been! so many laughs! *happy sighs*

Saturday, May 19, 2007


lies from the pit. grr, they make me grumble. especially at how we recieve lies without seeing if they are true, becuase they somehow 'sound' right.... even tho they are totally wrong.

take, for example, "God helps those who helps themselves". what a totally demonic, evil lie from the pit, designed to get us to strive in our own strength.

the truth is really, "God helps those who realize they can't help themselves".

i think i can do it myself, God's not gonna step in and prove it to me, He's gonna step back and say, you think so eh? so lets see how you do. He resists the proud.

wheras when i realize i am weak - not when i "feel" weak, but i realize that i *am*, existentially, weak - He is proven strong... anything good that comes through me is not of my strength, it's of His. i am unable in and of myself to do any good thing. all my righteous deed that *i* do are but filthy rags when i do not rely on Him first and foremost in the doing of them. i realize i am weak and tired and weak and frail.... and i say, Lord, if this is somehting You want me to do, give me the strength and oompha to do it.... otherwise, i know it's not something you want for me to do.

i shall not try to muster - muster up the energy, the oomph, the gusto, the willpower..... "no mustering! do not muster! ne muster pas!" ... those are His words to me. i try to strive and muster, i am sinning. He is the power source, not me. i can muster only from an empty cistern, wheras He is THE SOURCE, The Source of all things i need to do His work. the moment i am humble and realize that i, as a weak being, CANNOT muster it up for myself.... then He gives me grace, energy, ability, power to do what He calls me to do. if He doesn't give it to me, it wasn't for me to do!

He resists the proud, but gives grace to the humble. wow.

it makes me realize how my very literal physical and mental weakness has brought a revelation of this for me..... so i will all the more revel in my weakness, and not try to be, or to pretend to be, "strong". because in my weakness He is shown truly strong, and GLORIOUS!!!!!

i have friends who can just go, go, go.... and i think this revelation is harder for them to grasp, becuase they seemingly *can* do so much ..... so what is in their strength, and what is in God's? it's so unclear..... whereas, to my humiliation, i've had to realize i *cannot* *cannot* *cannot* do it on my own. i try to do it myself, and - every single time! - i crash and burn. period. even for something as seemingly simple as doing the dishes or having a shower... i cannot do it in my own strength.

the world would say, "whatchoo talkin' about, lynnie??? dishes? are you serious? get real!!!"...... but i don't care what the world thinks. i care about God's truth, period.

wow. where paul says he will all the more boast in his weaknesses and imfirmities *REALLY* resonates with me today!

wonderful loooong day!

so i was up early this morning... about 7:30 or so, ate, had a shower, did some stuff for a friend, and went to see my friend-from-out-of-town and her baby and her hubby! wonderful time.

then i went to see another friend and took her shopping, had some food, and drank some koolaid at her house... fun time!

then i went and visited another friend and drank coffee and played with lego. whee!

now i'm home, 12 hours after leaving the house this morning, and i have another early, busy day tomorrow what with church and worship practice and haircutting and lacrosse..... me weak, God strong..... the ball's in His court!!!!

availability to the Lord is a full-time job!

gurgles and tan-tan's photographic adventures

our new blog.

Friday, May 18, 2007

TT #4

a day late, but so what?

sigh. theres so much to be thankful for, where do i start?

i'm thankful for gas in my car, friends spoiling me rotten, and enough of everything that i need.

i'm thankful for milk, bread, and cereal!

i'm thankful i'm learning how to cook for myself. and clean!

i'm thankful that cleanliness is *not* next to godliness!!!!! lol

i'm thankful that "God helps those who helps themselves" is a total lie from the pit of hell..... becuase i sure can't help myself. i'm thankful He helps those who know they *can't* help themselves (whereas He resists the proud - who think they *can* help themselves*)....

i'm thankful for my Lord God! i wuv You, Jesus! *happy fuzzies*

i'm thankful for a friend from out of town i'm going to see tomorrow~!~!~!!! rah rah rah~! (and her wee one! woo hoo~!)

i'm thankful for drives in the rain. so beautiful~!

sudoku madness

i have two of these electronic sudoku games. they rock. it is the absolute best electronic version i've tried. touch screen, lighted screen. oooh lah lah.

Saturday, May 12, 2007

down by the river with tan tan

gurgles and tan tan went for a walk by the river. because tan tan is still too shy to post many pictures of her bootiful self, gurgles shall do the honor!

goal of the day: to get quiet tan tan to have fun and let down her hair

that was easy!

new goal: to help her relax in front of a camera and...


omegosh, did you take a picture of that?

DON'T make me laugh....

smile suppression....

posing again, dang it!

not for long, ya ain't!


....but not for long, lol!

let's have a go at posing again, ok lynnie?

my tiny friend tan tan sitting on a big ol' rock rock:

wanna know a secret? guess what i gots?


omegosh, did i do that??????

ooooooh, aren't i beautiful?????

don't make me laugh so hard i pee~~!!!!!

noooo, you're gonna make me pee!!!!!

ooooh, where's the spot? lemme take a picture of it! proof!

(laughing too hard to take pictures for a coupla minutes. my gut hurt.)

we have to go pick up jordan from lacrosse, so off we go....

i love this pic for some reason:

hurry up, lynnie, i gotta get to jordan's game....

lynnie, c'mon, i REALLY GOTTA GO!!!!

i give up!

i love trees!

i love lynnie's car!

well, *i* love my bootiful friend tanya!!!!!

*sigh*.... what a fun time. my stummy still aches!

Outcast, Adopted.

THIS BLOG IS IN NEED OF AN OVERHAUL. there are posts from years back i would not be able to post in good conscience now. i plan to overhaul the blog, and either delete or add a disclaimer to those posts. but that is gonna take time....

The Radical Summons: "
Therefore let us go to Him outside the camp and bear the reproach He endured. For here we have no lasting city, but we seek the city that is to come." Hebrews 13:13.

"The Spirit never loosens where the Word binds; the Spirit never justifies where the Word condemns; the Spirit never approves where the Word disapproves; the Spirit never blesses where the Word curses." —Thomas Brooks

‎"God receives none but those who are forsaken, restores health to none but those who are sick, gives sight to none but the blind, and life to none but the dead. He does not give saintliness to any but sinners, nor wisdom to any but fools. In short: He has mercy on none but the wretched and gives grace to none but those who are in disgrace. Therefore no arrogant saint, or just or wise man can be material for God, neither can he do the work of God, but he remains confined within his own work and makes of himself a fictitious, ostensible, false, and deceitful saint, that is, a hypocrite." --Martin Luther (W.A. 1.183ff)

i will not let You go: "Jacob's sense of his total debility and utter defeat is now the secret of his power with his friendly Vanquisher. God can overthrow all the prowess of the self-reliant, but He cannot resist the earnest entreaty of the helpless." --Albert Barnes

i will not let You go: "Jacob's determination did not flow from his strength, it flowed from his weakness." --Charles Leiter