Wednesday, March 28, 2007

culinary meme

my first, too!
  1. Most used gadget: can opener.... i'm not a gadget girl.
  2. Most used item in the whole kitchen: my whistling kettle that sounds like a train whistle!
  3. Last time I cooked for a crowd: love feast
  4. Who had the most influence on my cooking: mom :D
  5. Most used spice: curry powder
  6. Favourite ice cream: my homemade vanilla
  7. Coffee... ground or whole beans? instant.... with chicory!
  8. Peanut Butter... crunchy or smooth? either.... smooth...
  9. Pet peeve in someone else's kitchen: clean dishes with dried food on them, lol
  10. Too many in the freezer: before i moved? bottles filled with water, or empty bags (yup, empty bags.... ask mom next time you see her, lol ;) )... now? empty space, lol.
  11. Wine... white or red: *shrugs*
  12. Evian water? too salty
  13. Favourite fruit: banana, pineapple, canned mandarins....
  14. Vegetable I hate: green peppers (heartburn city)
  15. Food mispronunciation that grinds my gears: gee..... i don't think i have one...? maybe jicama (did i spell that right? lol)
  16. Favourite sandwich: dark rye, cream cheese, tomatoes and fresh cracked black pepper. at some freshly crushed avocado to that and i'll die on the spot....
  17. Indispensable condiment: sour cream or parmesan
  18. Seafood? tuna canned in oil.
  19. Salsa... with or without cilantro? what's cilantro?
  20. Carbs: POISON!

Tuesday, March 27, 2007

my technicolor dream quilt

from sears....*droools*.....

lynnie is reading

*gasp* could it be? am i reading?

yup. a book that should be on every christian's list of books to read.

i emptied a box of books on my bookshelf in my room, and a book i love caught my eye, so i started reading it before bed....

..."The Attributes of God", by Arthur W. Pink.

here's what caught me from chapter 1:

Analogy has been drawn between a savage finding a watch upon the sands, and from a close examination of it he infers a watch-maker. So far so good. But attempt to go further: suppose that savage sits down on the sand and endeavors to form to himself a conception of this watch-maker, his personal affections and manners; his disposition, aquirements, and moral character - all that goes to make up a personality; could he ever think or reason out a real man - the man who made the watch, so that he could say, "I am aquainted with him"? It seems trifling to ask such questions, but is the eternal and infinate God so much more within the grasp of human reason? No, indeed. The God of Scripture can only be known by those to whom He makes Himself known.

happy sighs.... yummy stuff!

Sunday, March 25, 2007

just a quickie

i'm too tired to write much, i need some sleep. i was up at 7 am this morning, going full throttle most of the day...... and i slept thru much of the sermon this morning, again. second time this month.

going to inquire about narcolepsy. again. i was once treated for it, felt better, then treatment was stopped becuase they said oh, it turns out you don't have it after all.... but a doc with much expetise in sleep disorders recently said, it's rare to have cataplexy without narcolepsy, so she would look into it. i'll have to find out next time i see her what she came up with.

i'm healing up nicely. still coughing and post-nasal-dripping, but it's clearing out, not clogging up, so it's all good. i didn't miss church again! whoo hoo!!!!

half-way to getting the old house emptied. please, Lord, give me the stamina to get this job done, cuz i'm still healing up and easily pooped. and i now have less than a week. got the disaster room half emptied, hallelujah!

ciao for now. loves y'all!

Wednesday, March 21, 2007


phenomenal video on abortion.

(i saw an old video once similar to this, and i was thinking earlier about how i wished i could see it again, and then i run across something similar!)

warning: disturbing footage.


jars of clay - flood. great song!

this album is still about my favorite of all time.

one of the first christian albums i ever owned.


never alone by barlow girl.... kewl!

Jeremy Camp on

takes a bit of time to load....

considerably better

well, today i definately feel considerably better. not in totality, but enough to venture out and give a friend a ride to the dr's office!

i must admit to feeling rather housebound though - yesterday i even ventured out for a walk - twice! once next door to drop something off for dear deb (did ya get it?), and the other just down the block a little (emphasize *little*) ways and back.

yesterday the neighbours helicopter came back.

then this morning it took off again.

and it came back again!

that's hilarious. it's amazing how little space a helicopter needs to land and take off!?!

such beautiful snow outside!

Tuesday, March 20, 2007

cough - zoned - tv

today i'm feeling better, tho i'm a bit nauseous and coughing up more stuff.

i would love to write something really profound but i'm kinda still zoned.

i've been watching a LOT of tv the last three days. watching 'house' now. it's weird, right up my alley, lol.

Monday, March 19, 2007

i just have to laugh

i just have to share this. it's kinda..... embarrassing, but it makes me laugh so hard. it's gotta be one of my best memories of just me and my camera phone.....

anyways, here goes:

if you know me well, you know i am my own favorite subject for taking photos of.

simply because no one else will tolerate it, lol.

anyways, here's one i snapped on my cell phone the other day:

i was like, whoa, i like that!!!!!!

....the lighting (keep in mind it's a cell phone camera, eh?) and my rings, and my hair and bandana, i like it!!!!!

only problem is that little flash of white clothing there...

can't have that. gotta be decent, girl.

so i try again, inadvertantly from a slightly different angle... and covering up the splash of white:

OH MY!!!!!!! crack me up and embarrass me and make me happy all at the same time.

is that really me? saweeeeet.

but oh me gosh, when i saw it,

"did i just take that picture?"


"did i just post that picture?!?!"



so i did get to prayer after all. caught a ride with me sister and dear neighbour deb, and got encouraged all the way home. prayer was awesome! glad i went. still coughing up chunks, but i was careful to cough *lightly* (ie. no chunks) when i was there (so now i'm really *hacking*!!!! lol), and into my sleeve, full coverage man!

adios for now, my friends!


so i muddled my way to the doctor today.... antibiotics. when i said i was coughing up brown junk, he was like, that means it's time for antibiotics.

now i've had some weird reactions to antibiotics, so he put me on an old standby, zithromax (azithromyacin i believe). that's why i didn't go to emerg on sunday when i was desperately in pain enough to: likely they just send me to my own doctor the next day. they don't usually like prescribing antibiotics to someone allergic to antibiotics... and is not sure which ones!

so here it is, half past 5 in the afternoon, i took my first two about 5 hours ago, and in a way i feel a bit better.... and in a way, not at all. we'll see if i can make prayer tonight (assuming there *is* prayer tonight that is, seein' as how i missed the announcements at church yesterday!)... but honestly, i don't know if i will. i feel a bit nauseous now, and that could be the antibiotics themselves (bleh).

but oh well, God is in control!

Sunday, March 18, 2007

considerably worse

so this morning i felt considerably worse... so yes, i missed church.

i rarely miss church.

i feel so out of the loop already! :P

i just had a shower so my head is a little less congested at the momento. so i'm typing.


not much to type about, i been sick!

beautiful weather saturday, eh?

i wish i could have enjoyed it more. i did go shopping, cuz i absolutley had to... so i prolly looked like a dead-woman-walking going up and down the aisles!

so enough writing. i gotta change my bed linens before i have to pass out again. g'day!

Saturday, March 17, 2007

sick as a dog

yuck. head PAIN. sniffles. fatigue. wooziness. and PAIN PAIN PAIN.

i may miss church tomorrow if i don't feel considerably better by morning.

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

my dream chair

this is the chair i want to get two of, from ikea, to replace my recliner and my bucket chair:

Monday, March 12, 2007

i am just done in

after two weeks of avoidance of the old place, i've looked at the calender and divvied up the weeks as such:

i have two weeks (less two days now) in which to absolutely empty the old place (all of which *i* have to do, with a bit of help from some friends thankfully, and a TON from GOD!!!!!)..... and then ONE WEEK in which to complete a massive cleaning list mandated by my landlord/the tenancy act (if i don't do it, i'll owe the government my damage deposit)..... for which i just don't think i can be there. ....i mean, the chemical cleaning products on top of the mould? it would be stupidity for me. which means turning to others for help. which is hard. i don't want to see anybody else have to step foot in there either..... but my energy is gone, my strength is kaput, and getting though each day is a miracle of God's strength in itself. and He says, reach out.

i'm also going to talk to my aunt and uncle about maybe paying some people if need be... i just don't know if they will go for it. money is still pretty tight.

i'm gonna strip down.... meaning, all upholstered stuff that has ever been at the old place - GONE. including my bed where i spend 8 hours of my day breathing the contaminated dust and the air that squishes in and out of the fibres as i move around in my sleep. i slept on the floor a for almost two years a few years back, i can do it again for a time if need be.

i've painstakingly washed every other bit of fabric - linens, clothes - that have come into my new house.... why should i let the furniture stay? becuase it's expensive to replace? hey, God supplies. where is my faith? saying i can't get rid of my contaminated bed becuase it's too expensive to buy a new one is NOT walking in faith!!!!! my Daddy God is the richest Daddy in the universe, period!

*the following is my opinion and experience, and i exercise my right to share it*:

i hope and pray NOBODY moves into that place. i truly believe that it's ruined my health, much of my belongings are contaminated, and my most recent neighbours there were there for less than a year were desperate to get out due to the air quality in that building. and we were not the only ones to complain. numerous comments have been made to all the tenants of how our clothes smelled, etc.

seriously, it should be condemned.

i always wanted to get an inspector in there, some AQ tests done for documentation... but all that required $$$ we didn't have.... so we lived with it. i'd have looked in the attic sometime if i had a hazmat suit (there's an entry to the attic in my unit) but i was not stupid enough to do that without one... so we lived with it. mom was in the basement a couple times, and she said the smell was overwhelmingly disgusting. it was bad enough when i could smell it wafting up from the open basement door. but we lived with it. (mom always said it's not necessarily a good idea to leave - becuase you can jump from the frying pan into the fire... but i'm living in a home with zero zip zilch mould... where was the faith in that?)

maybe this sounds a bit dramatic, 'could it really be that bad?'

it's a physically attractive and nicely laid out building, on a great lot. so it's appealing, to be sure!!!!

when i moved in, i assumed, in good faith, that the dank, stale air was from being unoccupied for several months.

but the smell never went away - it just got worse. i think brand new carpets offgassing both contributed to my asthma AND overpowered and thus disguised the severity of the musty smell for quite some time.

and i'm sure the next occupant will, in good faith, assume the smell is becuase the previous tenant was a bad housekeeper or some such.

but it's structurally unsound, and unsafe, in my opinion. i've been told that apparantly there is a lack of vapour barriers between the ground and living areas, and bathroom fans that vent into the attic, where the moisture stays.... and mould grows. i never saw any on my walls or anything (other than usual stuff on damp windows)... but you smell it. it gets into EVERYTHING. i have had at least two professionals i am aquainted with in the construction industry comment that how this place was built is a disaster, using cheap materials, poor design, and well below (current) code standards.

definately an UN-healthy house.

i manifested outright asthma for the first time in my life after living there for only about a year. now, i go over there for an hour or two, my breathing goes downhill. sometimes in only minutes i have an asthma attack.

everyday i dread having to go back there and rescue what i can of my stuff.

all my fountains are in Him. all my fountains are in Him. all my fountains are in Him. ... i have to keep telling myself that. not in my possessions, not in my health. i lay it all at His feet, for i know He has His purposes in all this.

nonetheless, i am so looking forward to the last day of march... handing over the keys, and being done with it, once and for all.

maybe for my sanity i should just empty it out and leave the cleaning for the landlords to deal with. their mouldy building, their problem.

screw the damage deposit. God will make a way. how's that for faith? rofl

Sunday, March 11, 2007

He moves me

ever read something you wrote less than an hour ago, and it moves you to your core? like, how did this come through my hands into text? wow.

here's mine:

i hear people all over saying, God do Your Miracles!!!!!!! and i cannot even go there becuase personally for me, when i try to say that, i'm chastised in my spirit and all i can do is lay stricken before Him and submit to Him, and cry out forgive me Lord!

i cannot deny the miraculous hand of God at work. i see it everywhere.

what i don't see, is a lack of the miraculous.

God speaking into the heart of a lost and depraved soul and causing their blind eyes to see is a true supernatural miracle. no spit required. God shining His light into the darkness and deception of a saul of tarsus and turning them into a paul who spends - pours out, lays down - their life for Him... that is signs and wonders. that's turning an ass into a majestic stallion fit for the King's bit. that beats a talking donkey any day.

the spiritual reality beats out the temporal shadow every time. it don't see it as settling for less, not at all. it's God's very best.

Saturday, March 10, 2007

a night of deep thinking

wow. it's almost 1 am, and i been musing and writing about God with a friend for prolly 2 hours... i need to get to bed, but here's a snippet of my thoughts:

i guess the jist of my trouble is this: i see that God is omnipotent and IS doing miracles - as He sees fit... and i surely don't see even an nth of what He's doing!!!! so any 'suggestion' that God is 'unable' because of my 'lack' of faith rubs me the wrong way. i am unable, that's for sure. i'm limited. my faith is not where i'd like it to be. but it's enough for Him to move mountains. for HIM to move them, not me. and He IS moving them. He doesn't need my help. and how He's moving even now awes me. so why do i need to cry out to Him to do miracles when He already is? but so many people seem blind to what He IS doing, and cry out, God, show Your power like You used to..... and i feel a grieving that we do not see what He IS doing! and not glorifying Him for it, for the rich meal He has laid out in front of us RIGHT NOW, if we would only see it with our eternal eyes, instead of begging for a few crumbs of dinners past....

Perhaps i see the temporal as but a shadow and a type of the spiritual. a physical dead-raising is merely a shadow of the spiritual resurrection going on anytime someone gets saved. a temporal healing is but a type of the greater spiritual healing He does in our hearts all the time.

so why cry out for God to do the shadows and types, when we have the real thing?

Thursday, March 08, 2007

go tan go!!!!

me 'n' tan booked it through canadian flat tire the other night, and because she's supposed to completely stay off her feet, i got her the keys to the store's handy dandy go-kart.

well, it might as well have been a go kart for how many times i nearly got run over by little mz. zoom-zoom!


my little fantasy: to get all the back issues of cloth, paper scissors magazine. i have issues 10, 9, and 6 (how i missed 7 and 8 i don't know!)..... i didn't know about it before issue 6.

fantastic, crazy-inspiring magazine..... a little steep at $10.99 per issue at the mag rack, but well worth it.


i got kidneys

i got 100% on this test. go figure i'd know that much about something i don't know much about.....?!

world kidney day today.

snow in afternoon

most of the built up snow from morning was gone by now, but check out the honkin' big snowflakes:

snowy morning

what i woke up to this morning:

Tuesday, March 06, 2007

home again!

home... at my new house, and home in blogland again. as of today!

i finally brought over my puter on friday, and couldn't connect, and finally after talking to two techs at telus, i discovered that the transfer to my new address hadn't gone through on the 19th as it was supposed to! so, a half month's credit on the way, as well as having to wait until monday (today!) to get online.

but here i be!

so.... what to say to update y'all?

yesterday at church, i dozed through the entire sermon (could *not* stay awake).... i later had a 4 hour nap, then slept 7 hours overnight. i'm so drowsey. i've been super cautious when driving. dug out my old book on narcolepsy to revisit that old issue (bleh). thinking it's because i've stopped my night meds, rebound somethin or other maybe. hoping it eases, focussing on God's sovereignty.

other than the intense waves of sleepiness, life is awesome!

my house is clean and mould free. i am slowly but surely liquidating my stuff, and i'm getting so sick of empty boxes and boxes with stuff to get rid of hangin' about..... i've been painting and kind of enjoying it.

yesterday my pastor stretched me through hoops by asking me to play in B flat major (which i've never played before) with maybe 10 or 15 minutes max to learn the chords, and try to sound like i know what i'm doing (ha! hack sputter hahaha!).....

and..... i need to get to bed. i'm fading fast. more tomorrow i'm sure....... g'nite ........ y'all .......... zzzz .............

Outcast, Adopted.

THIS BLOG IS IN NEED OF AN OVERHAUL. there are posts from years back i would not be able to post in good conscience now. i plan to overhaul the blog, and either delete or add a disclaimer to those posts. but that is gonna take time....

The Radical Summons: "
Therefore let us go to Him outside the camp and bear the reproach He endured. For here we have no lasting city, but we seek the city that is to come." Hebrews 13:13.

"The Spirit never loosens where the Word binds; the Spirit never justifies where the Word condemns; the Spirit never approves where the Word disapproves; the Spirit never blesses where the Word curses." —Thomas Brooks

‎"God receives none but those who are forsaken, restores health to none but those who are sick, gives sight to none but the blind, and life to none but the dead. He does not give saintliness to any but sinners, nor wisdom to any but fools. In short: He has mercy on none but the wretched and gives grace to none but those who are in disgrace. Therefore no arrogant saint, or just or wise man can be material for God, neither can he do the work of God, but he remains confined within his own work and makes of himself a fictitious, ostensible, false, and deceitful saint, that is, a hypocrite." --Martin Luther (W.A. 1.183ff)

i will not let You go: "Jacob's sense of his total debility and utter defeat is now the secret of his power with his friendly Vanquisher. God can overthrow all the prowess of the self-reliant, but He cannot resist the earnest entreaty of the helpless." --Albert Barnes

i will not let You go: "Jacob's determination did not flow from his strength, it flowed from his weakness." --Charles Leiter