Tuesday, September 04, 2007

my three things list

i'm such a copycat, lol!

Three things that scare me:
1. rejection
2. insignificance
3. being yelled at!

Three people who make me laugh:
1. kimmie
2. buddy
3. rick mercer

Three things I love:
1. God
2. friends
3. church family

Three things I don't like:
1. gas
2. cramps
3. diarrhea!

Three things I don't understand:
1. the desire to put toxic chemicals on one's skin or in one's airspace
2. why people let their fireplaces smoulder (*cough*)
3. "keeping up with the joneses"

Three things on my desk
1. phone
2. tv remote
3. masses of paper!

Three things I am doing right now:
1. watching tv
2. filling out this form
3. running to and fro, from my ball chair to the throne (ick)

Three things I want to do before I die: (Lord willin'!)
1. hike mt. edziza provincial park with a camera, notebook, and bible!
2. go to l'abri
3. go on an artist/writer's retreat (say, in atlin)

Three things I can do:
1. music
2. crochet
3. art

Three things I can’t do:
1. cry on command
2. back flip
3. yodel (tho i'd like to)

Three things you should listen to:
1. God's voice!
2. wind, rain, birds and squirrels
3. good music

Three things you should never listen to:
1. your dead mother's voice, lol!
2. non-constructive criticism and gossip
3. abusive words, accusations and lies from the pit of hell

Three shows I watched as a kid:
1. the muppet show
2. the littlest hobo
3. the beachcombers

Saturday, August 25, 2007


The Clergyman

Which Princess Bride Character are You?
this quiz was made by mysti

it's been years since i've watched this movie.... i guess i really should watch it again.

funny thing is i've owned it for like a year. i'm such a slow poke!

so it's been a while

well, hmm, it has been a while. what's new? not much, yet, a whole heck of a lot!

it's raining out and i love it.

i'm still waiting too see if i get funding for a cpap machine for my apnea. bleh. i'm soo dopey these days, i'm not driving anymore, rarely anyways. i'm thinking of cancelling my car insurance, why pay $175 a month if i'm not driving? ... so instead, i'll get a bus pass. some freedom to roam, anyways! and when i get the cpap and feel better (i hope!) i can fire up pipsqueak again (my wee car, lol).

God is good, doing awesome things in my life. but can't say too much about it really, it's too.... BIG... y'know? lol

upcoming plans, Lord willin' (an' Lord makin' a way'n! but He's a miracle worker, eh?) :
-going to a wedding in PG in november
-spending time with a currently pregnant friend in Edmonton when she delivers in december
-visiting mags in nanaimo/going to gtt at oceanside, maybe in same trip, whenever that may be, asap?

i think that "Lord, i was born a ramblin' gal"... got the roaming itch. i really need to get healthy enough to drive again, i thinkest! Lord be willin'! His agenda, no' mine~!!!!!!!

ta ta for now!

(one day, maybe, i'll work on my template a bit and make it so i can see my page from my cell phone, and thus/ergo post from my phone. when i made up the template i kinda destroyed the mobile settings, i mean, who looks at blogs on a mobile phone, anyways? (*whacks head*))

Saturday, August 04, 2007

strep owie, too

yah, uhuh, i got me a case of strep. i went to the doctor on thursday, and i got bawled out for coming in so late. he said it was BAAAD. it was extreme pain to swallow (i'd stopped trying, spit cup in hand), and my throat was so red and swollen he said if i'd left it a bit longer it might have caused difficulty breathing, or even choking. so....

instant antibiotics and liquid t3.... and he said if the antibiotics don't make a difference in a day or so, i'd have to go on intravenous antibiotics! .... well, fortunately they kicked in, is saturday evening now and i'm a little more mobile, but still sleeping LOTS.

it figures the one time i take an owie to the doctor and he doesn't say, "oh, that's nothing to worry about", i get in trouble from him! lol.

i'll be at church tomorrow, even if it means sleeping on the pews (i'm catching a ride with debbie at 8:30 am). three days of antibiotics, not a chance that i'm contagious anymore!!!!! lol!!!

btw the boil is healing up fine. it's one of those God things. got me some figs right next door! (heehee) (see isaiah 38:21, God is hilarious! and awesome!!!! yeah!!!!)

Monday, July 30, 2007

i hz oweez

i gots me an owie on my leg. i think either a bug bite or a zit got infected and it is puffy and red. i put some peroxide and a sticky bandage over it to try to draw out whatever is in there.... hopefully it'll clear up on its own.

i just listened to my phone messages - 5! - and among them was one from the sleep apnea testing place in PG, saying i had tested positive for obstructive sleep apnea, and have a prescription for CPAP therapy, which is a machine that blows air into your nose to keep your airways open.


but seriously, it is good news, cuz if therapy works, i should be less sleepy and tired.

Sunday, July 29, 2007

a bit of zoo for yoo

one of my favorite movies, hilarious~!

i love how they did this preview:

someone did this, and it's hilarious!

alternate end credits, i like this version of this song:

oh golly, this one makes it look like a drama, ha!

Friday, July 27, 2007

hallelujah hippo!

There is a joy which is not given to the ungodly,
But to those who love Thee for Thine own sake,
Whose joy Thou Thyself art.

And this is the happy life,
To rejoice to Thee,
Of Thee,
For Thee;
This it is,
And there is no other.

-- St. Augustine of Hippo


wednesday..... i spent three hours at the hospy with tan.... from 11pm till 2 am. after a pretty full day.

thursday.... i was supposed to babysit... but i got there 25 minutes late, cuz i just couldn't drag my sorry tush outta bed, then when i got up - and normally would be able to get ready in that amount of time - i couldn't move faster than oatmeal sliding down a wall..... so i was late. no one was home, alternate plans had been made.

ouch, failure. i hate letting people down!

so i went and got breakfast and sat in the park.... and fell asleep in the car. first for a solid hour, then continually dozing off uncontrollably. finally i got a hold of pammy and she let me come over and crash on her couch. i drove the half-block to where she was (a/c blowing in my face full on, loud music, to keep me awake, i wouldn't even have tried driving anywhere any farther away!) and slept on her couch until late afternoon. i guzzled coffee, and tried to stay awake, but i just kept falling asleep. uncontrollably. until shortly before dinner.

therein lie the wow.

friday.... today. i was supposed to be at carolyns at 9:30, but i could not wake up. so now i'm going to be there for 11..... please, Lord, get me there, today! and get me to the wedding on time, tomorrow!!!!!


tans had some more developments on her hip condition.... family, read her recent entry, k? she's needin some love right now.....

love ya lots, tan-tan!!!!! i'll try to stop by later, Lord willin'! (((((hugs)))))

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

christian flowers

Christians are like the flowers in a garden, that have each of
them the dew of Heaven, which, being shaken with the wind, they
let fall at each other's roots, whereby they are jointly
nourished, and become nourishers of each other.

-- John Bunyan


The Elements of Prayer

Its ground: God, by whose goodness it springeth in us.
Its use: to turn our will to His will.
Its end: to be made one with Him and like to Him in all things.

-- Julian of Norwich

Saturday, July 14, 2007

movie music

just watched the life aquatic with steve zissou - fun movie!

anyways, there was some kewl music on it, here's a samplin'...

Thursday, July 12, 2007

i would drive 500 km

and i did! and i would drive 500 more iffn i got the opportunity to. i drove a friend to pick up her hubby from camp at Bob Quinn Lake! BEAUTIFUL.

i almost passed out when i realized how close we were getting to mt edziza provincial park - my dream voyage. i felt amazed that God would let me get so 'close' to it, so to speak. like He planned it. of course.

passed a crushed car that evidently ran into something on stilts - the top of the car was more damaged than the front - like a moose or deer maybe. whoever's car it was was in good enough shape to park it on the side of the road and leave the hazards on before they abandonded it (got a ride?), so i'm thankful that they are (presumeably) ok!

we got into kitwanga on fumes, and had to stay there four hours until the gas station opened at 7am. overall, a 14 hour trip, 10 of those driving. great weekend!!!!

love those spontaneous trips!

anybody need a ride? lol :)

Tuesday, July 10, 2007

i love this song

after exploring a bit, had to add a couple more from gnarls barkley.

Monday, July 09, 2007

a coupla wedding songs

ok, so four songs. while looking for a youtube of captain and tenille's "Wedding Song (There is Love)", i came across these:

(the song i was looking for, but by a different artist)

and ruth, i think you'll like this one~!

wonder why these are appealing to me tonight.... maybe cuz i'll be going to two weddings this summer? lol

For Debbie, from her wee minstrel

Along Came Jones

(the version i remember, by the coasters)

May the Bird of Paradise Fly Up Your Nose

(again, the version i remember, but i don't know who by)

Dead Skunk in the middle of the road

(louden wainwrite III)

Thursday, July 05, 2007


this ministers to me tonight.

God gives us the vision, then He takes us down to the valley to batter us into the shape of the vision, and it is in the valley that so many of us faint and give way. Every vision will be made real if we will have patience. Think of the enormous leisure of God! He is never in a hurry. We are always in such a frantic hurry. In the light of the glory of the vision we go forth to do things, but the vision is not real in us yet; and God has to take us into the valley, and put us through fires and floods to batter us into shape, until we get to the place where He can trust us with the veritable reality. Ever since we had the vision God has been at work, getting us into the shape of the ideal, and over and over again we escape from His hand and try to batter ourselves into our own shape.

from today's my utmost for His highest, oswald chambers. more here.


love her voice, gonna go get her album soon!

TT #6

i am thankful for neighbours i love.
for opportunities to be playing me gueetar whilst me friend is weeding in her garden.
for songs, ladybugs, and ladybug songs.
canned tuna, and whole wheat tortillas to wrap it in.
for kakuro and sudoku.
cool houses during hot weather.
healing after sunburns.
indoor plumbing.
memories of my mom.
phones, land line or cellular.
farts. ooh, baby!

Wednesday, July 04, 2007

the challenges of late

hmm. so i haven't been blogging much lately.... i haven't been doing too much really. i'm tired, and sleeping a fair bit. but i'm not allowing myself to beat myself up for it, either, cuz there appears to be a reason for it.

my doc thinks i have sleep apnea.... where you stop breathing in your sleep..... so you wake up over and over and over again, your blood oxygen level goes down, and your sleep is very poor. as a result, during the day, you're very tired and unrested, your brain is fogged from lack of sleep, and there can be other problems too.

last weekend i did a home test with a portable pulse oximeter, where you clip a measuring thingy on the end of your finger and it reads - and records - both your blood oxygen level and your heart rate.

surprising thing to me was how my heartbeat was all over the place! very little regularity... i thought our heartbeat was supposed to be somewhat regular, at least! when i was at rest, it would flash green with every heartbeat, as it's supposed to. as soon as i moved around in bed, to turn over, adjust my pillow, or got up for a trip to the bathroom, it would get very irregular, flash orange, triple beat, or even stop entirely for a few seconds.

oh dear.

so up comes the whole 'fear of death' thing.

#1 - God planned the day of my death (which is only a leaving of the mortal realm and going to be in the presence of God fully, whoo hoo!!!!!) BEFORE THE FOUNDATION OF THE WORLD.

gotta remember that one!!!!!

#2 - am i going to look at my circumstances, or am i going to fix my eyes on what God has said - and believe THAT - regardless of how things look?!?

gotta remember that one, too!

ain't nothing can change God's plans for me. those are no 'wishful thinking' plans, that God would 'like' to do in my life, but His hands are tied, depending on the whims of the enemy - no, those are the plans and purposes from BEFORE THE FOUNDATION OF THE WORLD of an OMNIPOTENT GOD! far above all other principalities and powers! there is no preempting them! no matter how things 'look'!

so nothing has changed - if God wants to bring me home tomorrow, He will - and if He wants to take me out in 70 years, nothing can change that, flip-flopping heart or not!

where do i want to be, anyways? do i not yearn to be with Him, with no encumbrances such as a mortal body in the way? YES!

when i saw that heartbeat-flash stop - and yes, my heart had stopped, i checked, and i could feel the stillness - for several seconds, did i feel dread? no..... it was bated excitement - i was like, could it be? is it time, Lord? then it starts beating again, and i'm like, oh. ok, i'm still here, for the time being. i'll keep on keepin' on, Lord.

in the meantime, God has a purpose for me being so tired. in some way, shape or form, i am in training. it may not look like it to the world, but i am a warrior. He is training my hands for war and my fingers for battle.

now my fingers need to attack and go turn off the dumb tv. the news ended, and some dumb soap opera is making me laugh.... i have to stop it!

ciao for now!

Saturday, June 16, 2007

meme away!!!!

1.ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT? on my face..... throwing a beachball around the livin' room..... it hit the ceiling lampshade (glass), it shattered, and i ran for the kitchen.... then split second i had the thought, hey, it would be neat to be TRAPPED! on the other side of the glass, by the tv, until mom rescued me... so i turned around and headed for the tv. a shard caught my cheek on it's way down~! so yup, i was trapped.... and bleeding! lol
2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM? a framed pic of my nana and her brother when they were kids, a framed manipulated photo, a canvas i drew on, and a canvas painted by my friend pammy! :D
3. DO YOU SNORE, GRIND YOUR TEETH, OR TALK IN YOUR SLEEP? i snore, yup. and i've been told i stop breathing in my sleep - enough so that i got a sleep study done about ten years ago and they said it was too minimal to diagnose apnea. but... now my doc wants to check me for it again.
4. WHAT TYPE OF MUSIC DO YOU LISTEN TO? music i like~! :D somma dis, somma dat.
6. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW? sleep, pizza in the oven, and the heat to ease up. 24 degrees i am NOT acclimatized to!!!! i'm from the great white north, ya know!!!!
7. WHAT or WHO DO YOU MISS? i miss mom.... i listened to her voice in one of the messages i kept in my voice mail...."helloooo, loverrlllyyy!" and "i'll see ya when i see ya!"... boy is that one ever true! :D
8. WHAT IS YOUR MOST PRIZED POSSESSION(S)? irreplaceable? my book of songs God's given me. i couldn't remember them all if i tried. i guess i should do something about that, eh? put them all on a data cd, and store them in a safe place.....
9. HOW TALL ARE YOU? 5 foot 5 and a half.
10. DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC? not usually. when i'm in a bathroom without windows, the door is closed, and i'm having a shower!, maybe..... which i have now, so i guess i'm having to get over it!
11. DO YOU GET SCARED IN THE DARK? not usually.
12. THE LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU CRY? uh...... Jesus.
13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PERFUME FOR THE OPPOSITE GENDER? NO PERFUME, please!!!!! it's all made with chemicals, it's not natural like it used to be.... there can be over a thousand chemicals mixed into one perfume!!!!!
14. WHAT KIND OF HAIR/EYE COLOR DO YOU LIKE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX? whatever my future husband will have! ;)
15. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF PROPOSING/ BEING PROPOSED TO? anywhere.... aren't i boring? i don't allow myself to fantasize about romantic things....when and if it happens, i'm sure it will be exactly how it's supposed to be, which will thus be PERFECT! cuz God planned it, not me! lol
16. COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINK? coffee.... and chocolate covered coffee/expresso beans! (what's the diff, anyways?)
17. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PIZZA? generic type? 'deluxe'. specific? dr oetkers mushroomy pizza...
18. IF YOU CAN EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD IT BE? dang it, frozen pizza!!!!!! but i have to finish this danged quiz first!!!!
20. HAVE YOU EVER EATEN A GOLDFISH? no way... and i have no little brother to have dropped one down my throat when i'm sleeping, so highly doubtful!
21. WHAT WAS THE FIRST GIFT SOMEONE EVER GAVE YOU? that i can remember? gee.....i had some little ring given to me with a tiny shard of diamond in it way back when i was a kid, the first thing of "value" i can remember, i guess. prolly loooong gone.
22. DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU? i should hope so... or all my friends are liars! heehee
23. ARE YOU DOUBLE JOINTED? yes, but not officially diagnosed as such.
24 and 25..where did you go?! .... they musta been sick questions!
26. DO YOU HAVE A PET RIGHT NOW? no.. but i'm longing for one. but i can't. no pets allowed. so i'm enjoying pets vicariously through my friends' pets!
27. WHAT KIND IS IT? i cannot describe what i do not have!!!!
28. WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE PERSON IS GOING TO LEAVE YOU? hmmm.... not going to go there, as it's irrelevant, as i can't see the future!!!!!
29. WHAT IS THE BEST WAY TO TELL SOMEONE HOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO YOU? say it.... and back it up by living it.
31. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES? uh.... pink?
33.WHAT ANNOYS YOU THE MOST? idiot drivers. oh... and my own humiliating case of road rage!
34. HAVE YOU BEEN OUT OF YOUR HOME COUNTRY? yes, once, for the 2005 LA LTT.
35. YOUR WEAKNESSES? road rage. ice caps (with cream, please). housekeeping.
36. MET ANYONE FAMOUS? not really.
37. FIRST JOB? bookstore.
41. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU FILLED THIS OUT? sending a friend some pics!
40. HAVE YOU EVER HAD SURGERY? yeah... if a lumpectomy counts! :D
43. HAVE YOU EVER HAD BRACES? yup.... twice! :D
44. WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY? to become ..... "independently wealthy".... for the rest of my life, IE: no more inability to buy milk or gas or shampoo or go anywhere or get new underwear, etc etc etc!!!!! lol
45. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT? as many as God wants me to have.
46. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE? yeah, a nice guy my mom new when she was in high school. sadly he died in a car accident with some other teens. that would have been back in the 50's. oh, and it's part of mom's middle name, gwendolyne.
47. DO YOU WISH ON STARS? no, that's witchcraft, donchaknow?! :)
49. WHAT KIND OF SHAMPOO DO YOU USE? plantation thursday (or is it thursday plantation?) tea tree oil shampoo. but i'm giving it up for two reasons: save on doesn't carry it any more, and i've discovered it has some ingredients i'm trying to avoid! :)
50. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? not really.... sometimes, before it turns into the scrawl after 30 seconds of writing! lol
52. ANY BAD HABITS? road rage. don't you know that, yet? lol
53.WHAT IS THE MOST EMBARRASING CD ON YOUR SHELF? um..... i don't know. but during my move i discovered a box of some old tapes i had before i met Jesus, there should be something interesting in there!
54. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU? i should hope so! lol. but it depends, i'm a bit over the top and wacky for some peeps.
55. DO LOOKS MATTER? no... just pheramones (sp?) lol
57. HOW DO YOU RELEASE ANGER? actually, i don't usually get mad. unless i'm driving. then my lips flap.... until i calm down enough to shut them.....
58. WHERE IS YOUR SECOND HOME? pam's. the church. tan's. anywhere my heart is~!
62. WERE YOU A FAN OF BARNEY AS A KID? he didn't exist back then.
63. DO YOU USE SARCASM? i don't know.... sarcasm literally "tearing the flesh" so i try to be very careful.
64. MASHED POTATOES OR MACARONI AND CHEESE? mac and cheese.... whole wheat pasta, with REAL CHEESE, thanks! :)
66. WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES? lynnie, lynnie lynnie bo binnie, lynnie binnie, lynne bean. cute, eh? ;)
67. WHATS YOUR FAVORITE BAND/SINGER? uh.... Montserrat Caballe, Holly Cole, B-52's, Johnny Cash... and any combination of our church's worship team.
68. WHATS YOUR FAVORITE TV SHOW? uh..... House. it's a new day. local news.
69. WHAT WAS YOUR ACT/SAT SCORE? don't think i got far enough to get those.
80. WHERE IS YOUR FAVORITE VACATION SPOT? the big cold lake north of town. and anywhere with mickie and fam!
90. WHATS THE FASTEST YOU HAVE GONE IN A CAR? with someone else? 140km/h. with me driving, about 120 or 125, accidentally, when 110 was the speed limit. i'm a bit of a stickler about that one!
91. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU FLIPPED OFF? my webcam. you can see the pic, if you can find it, here in my blog! mwhahahahahah!

Friday, June 08, 2007

TT#5... and a grumble.

first, the grumble. watched global news on the flooding here in town. grr. they totally overplayed 'running out of food in stores and gas in gas stations' bit. we're still getting food through the cranberry, they can barge it, and we wouldn't be running out of gas if people weren't hoarding gas (i saw someone filling like 8 jeri(sp?) cans today. oink. but oh well, they are saying they will barge it in thru kit. so whatever!!!!!!

ok, thankful thursday.

i am thankful that God is in control.
i am thankful for treasures in heaven, so i don't have to worry about treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy, and rivers erode and steal it away.....
i am thankful for a new leg... even if it means losing a perfectly wonderful leg (whaaahh~!)
i am thankful for those who are bone of our bone and flesh of our flesh.... the true family.
i am thankful for the ability to fear God, and the help He gives to help me not fear man above Him.
i am thankful for new songs, and friends who put up with my quasi-proficient guitar playing, nay, they encourage it!
i am thankful for being thankful, cuz i am...... :)

Thursday, June 07, 2007

i am a delinquant....


i dunno. i'm not much too interested in turning on the comp much lately much. i only did this morning cuz i had a coupla new songs to type out.

my aunt & unk are in the evacuation warning part of town. my other aunt and unk (the ones i never, ever, talk to) are totally flooded, so i heard.

what the heck, The Blood is thicker than water.... ie. family by 'The Blood' (of Christ) is a closer tie than family by 'water' (ie natural born).


i went to go get gas today, and the station was completely out of gas. so i went to another station and got next weeks gas fillup. well, fiftyup. not fillup. fiftyup. yup. lynnies lost it! lol.

ack, i just realized why i'm feeling so uncomfortable sitting at the comp.... i'm sitting on my piano bench, instead of my ball..... hmm, i wonder if i can play the piano playing on my ball? heehee.....

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

a day of firsts

i had my first experience with doing laundry in a washer that is *outdoors*! .... and drying *all* my laundry on a clothesline.

and for the first time i put oil, coolant, and power steering fluid in the car. i musta done not toooo bad, cuz the car still runs, lol.

oh, and i guess you could say this is the first day of the year that i've gotten a LOT of sun..... i hope i don't burn!

house is on, i dig that show, cya.....

Monday, May 21, 2007

a different beautiful day

a week or two ago.....

it really is a beautiful day

everyday! why?

because You are my everything, Jesus!!!!!

an amazing two days....

first off, church yesterday echoed so much of what has been in my heart, bang bang, confirmation. i love it when that happens. God is good.

secondly, my piano was evidently not heard in the congregation.... that's good, cuz i didn't play that great, lol.

then i had a long relaxing afternoon at tan's, cut some hair, looked for a awol kiddo, and ate the bestest chilli ever!

then i visited pammy, and she came over and we had a slumber party, went for a walk, sang God songs until the wee hour of 11pm (ha), and yakked until close to 3.... then snored in harmony until 'bout 11am. whoo hoo! thank You Lord, for the convenience of air mattresses!

then today i spent some time at pammy's, and went for TWO walks with her (i have a whopping 7310 steps on my pedometer thus far! who'da thunk?) and got lots of vitamin D.

then mon unk and ma taunt (sp? (mickie?!) lol) gived me a twenty so i could get some milk and cereal and cream cheese ( a necessity in my fridge!) and some dish soap. thank You LORD!!!!!

now i'm at home in my homey home and typing on me blog and thinking i need to take a picture of something.....

an interesting reflection and shadow on my wall......

but what of?

reflected sunlight casting a shadow of my funny hand made felted grinning bunny. i wuv my mr. bunnikins!!!!! ha!!!! so does my mom, in the picture behind, she looks like she's gonna kiss his wittle footsie!!!!

rofl! what a great day this has been! so many laughs! *happy sighs*

Saturday, May 19, 2007


lies from the pit. grr, they make me grumble. especially at how we recieve lies without seeing if they are true, becuase they somehow 'sound' right.... even tho they are totally wrong.

take, for example, "God helps those who helps themselves". what a totally demonic, evil lie from the pit, designed to get us to strive in our own strength.

the truth is really, "God helps those who realize they can't help themselves".

i think i can do it myself, God's not gonna step in and prove it to me, He's gonna step back and say, you think so eh? so lets see how you do. He resists the proud.

wheras when i realize i am weak - not when i "feel" weak, but i realize that i *am*, existentially, weak - He is proven strong... anything good that comes through me is not of my strength, it's of His. i am unable in and of myself to do any good thing. all my righteous deed that *i* do are but filthy rags when i do not rely on Him first and foremost in the doing of them. i realize i am weak and tired and weak and frail.... and i say, Lord, if this is somehting You want me to do, give me the strength and oompha to do it.... otherwise, i know it's not something you want for me to do.

i shall not try to muster - muster up the energy, the oomph, the gusto, the willpower..... "no mustering! do not muster! ne muster pas!" ... those are His words to me. i try to strive and muster, i am sinning. He is the power source, not me. i can muster only from an empty cistern, wheras He is THE SOURCE, The Source of all things i need to do His work. the moment i am humble and realize that i, as a weak being, CANNOT muster it up for myself.... then He gives me grace, energy, ability, power to do what He calls me to do. if He doesn't give it to me, it wasn't for me to do!

He resists the proud, but gives grace to the humble. wow.

it makes me realize how my very literal physical and mental weakness has brought a revelation of this for me..... so i will all the more revel in my weakness, and not try to be, or to pretend to be, "strong". because in my weakness He is shown truly strong, and GLORIOUS!!!!!

i have friends who can just go, go, go.... and i think this revelation is harder for them to grasp, becuase they seemingly *can* do so much ..... so what is in their strength, and what is in God's? it's so unclear..... whereas, to my humiliation, i've had to realize i *cannot* *cannot* *cannot* do it on my own. i try to do it myself, and - every single time! - i crash and burn. period. even for something as seemingly simple as doing the dishes or having a shower... i cannot do it in my own strength.

the world would say, "whatchoo talkin' about, lynnie??? dishes? are you serious? get real!!!"...... but i don't care what the world thinks. i care about God's truth, period.

wow. where paul says he will all the more boast in his weaknesses and imfirmities *REALLY* resonates with me today!

wonderful loooong day!

so i was up early this morning... about 7:30 or so, ate, had a shower, did some stuff for a friend, and went to see my friend-from-out-of-town and her baby and her hubby! wonderful time.

then i went to see another friend and took her shopping, had some food, and drank some koolaid at her house... fun time!

then i went and visited another friend and drank coffee and played with lego. whee!

now i'm home, 12 hours after leaving the house this morning, and i have another early, busy day tomorrow what with church and worship practice and haircutting and lacrosse..... me weak, God strong..... the ball's in His court!!!!

availability to the Lord is a full-time job!

gurgles and tan-tan's photographic adventures

our new blog.

Friday, May 18, 2007

TT #4

a day late, but so what?

sigh. theres so much to be thankful for, where do i start?

i'm thankful for gas in my car, friends spoiling me rotten, and enough of everything that i need.

i'm thankful for milk, bread, and cereal!

i'm thankful i'm learning how to cook for myself. and clean!

i'm thankful that cleanliness is *not* next to godliness!!!!! lol

i'm thankful that "God helps those who helps themselves" is a total lie from the pit of hell..... becuase i sure can't help myself. i'm thankful He helps those who know they *can't* help themselves (whereas He resists the proud - who think they *can* help themselves*)....

i'm thankful for my Lord God! i wuv You, Jesus! *happy fuzzies*

i'm thankful for a friend from out of town i'm going to see tomorrow~!~!~!!! rah rah rah~! (and her wee one! woo hoo~!)

i'm thankful for drives in the rain. so beautiful~!

sudoku madness

i have two of these electronic sudoku games. they rock. it is the absolute best electronic version i've tried. touch screen, lighted screen. oooh lah lah.

Saturday, May 12, 2007

down by the river with tan tan

gurgles and tan tan went for a walk by the river. because tan tan is still too shy to post many pictures of her bootiful self, gurgles shall do the honor!

goal of the day: to get quiet tan tan to have fun and let down her hair

that was easy!

new goal: to help her relax in front of a camera and...


omegosh, did you take a picture of that?

DON'T make me laugh....

smile suppression....

posing again, dang it!

not for long, ya ain't!


....but not for long, lol!

let's have a go at posing again, ok lynnie?

my tiny friend tan tan sitting on a big ol' rock rock:

wanna know a secret? guess what i gots?


omegosh, did i do that??????

ooooooh, aren't i beautiful?????

don't make me laugh so hard i pee~~!!!!!

noooo, you're gonna make me pee!!!!!

ooooh, where's the spot? lemme take a picture of it! proof!

(laughing too hard to take pictures for a coupla minutes. my gut hurt.)

we have to go pick up jordan from lacrosse, so off we go....

i love this pic for some reason:

hurry up, lynnie, i gotta get to jordan's game....

lynnie, c'mon, i REALLY GOTTA GO!!!!

i give up!

i love trees!

i love lynnie's car!

well, *i* love my bootiful friend tanya!!!!!

*sigh*.... what a fun time. my stummy still aches!

Outcast, Adopted.

THIS BLOG IS IN NEED OF AN OVERHAUL. there are posts from years back i would not be able to post in good conscience now. i plan to overhaul the blog, and either delete or add a disclaimer to those posts. but that is gonna take time....

The Radical Summons: "
Therefore let us go to Him outside the camp and bear the reproach He endured. For here we have no lasting city, but we seek the city that is to come." Hebrews 13:13.

"The Spirit never loosens where the Word binds; the Spirit never justifies where the Word condemns; the Spirit never approves where the Word disapproves; the Spirit never blesses where the Word curses." —Thomas Brooks

‎"God receives none but those who are forsaken, restores health to none but those who are sick, gives sight to none but the blind, and life to none but the dead. He does not give saintliness to any but sinners, nor wisdom to any but fools. In short: He has mercy on none but the wretched and gives grace to none but those who are in disgrace. Therefore no arrogant saint, or just or wise man can be material for God, neither can he do the work of God, but he remains confined within his own work and makes of himself a fictitious, ostensible, false, and deceitful saint, that is, a hypocrite." --Martin Luther (W.A. 1.183ff)

i will not let You go: "Jacob's sense of his total debility and utter defeat is now the secret of his power with his friendly Vanquisher. God can overthrow all the prowess of the self-reliant, but He cannot resist the earnest entreaty of the helpless." --Albert Barnes

i will not let You go: "Jacob's determination did not flow from his strength, it flowed from his weakness." --Charles Leiter