Tuesday, June 30, 2009



WOW..... just wow....

watch it full screen. john piper is real expressive, and you don't want to miss it! phenomenal word!


don't waste your life

the whole series is amazing.... i encourage all to invest the time into watching this teaching.

this one really stood out to me.


Monday, June 29, 2009

Sunday, June 28, 2009

replacing one idol with another

in the sermon today at church, mike quoted somebody (rigby wallace?) as saying something like, we cannot remove an idol, we can only ever replace it with a new one... he also talked about the futility of finding our peace in anything besides God.

well, i ran across this little video today, and found it to be quite relevant to todays message, and thought provoking in a very creatively visual way. it's pretty cool.... and it's high def, so watch it full screen! :)

Bendito Machine III


Friday, June 26, 2009

i'm curious...

i have a question for you folks..... check out this picture (scroll down a bit) and tell me what your first reaction is. why? what is your honest reaction? how do you feel about this reaction? why?


i really gotta start sucking...

...at cooking. cuz whenever i cook, it's so yummy i want a second helping... and i eat too much. mind you, ya can't cook much healthier!!!

don't look like much, simple, but so yummy....*drools*


Wednesday, June 24, 2009

bear with me....

i think best through my fingers - typing to be specific.

remaining to pay this month (ie this pay period):
[tithe, rent and bills already taken care of]
change of address at post office ($40?)
rent at new location $295(+/-)
hydro at new location...?
transfer fee for telus?
campout fees: $25?
cheap cooler?
once i don't need hot water, png disconnection...
TOILET PAPER, ASAP!!!!!!! lol.....

next pay period (july 22 or 29th?) :
hydro disconnection at old place...
[and tithe, rent, and bills, of course!]

off to eat and go to bed. NO MORE THINKING ABOUT THIS STUFF!!!!!! :)

***edit: didn't work... my brain wrangled with it till almost 1 am!!! BAH!!!! :P


Wandering Clover

started a new blog: Wandering Clover. walking, pondering, goals, reasons.... God.


Tuesday, June 23, 2009

ok, i gotta pace myself

i could easily have done another 7km walk today if i didn't tell myself *no*. that would be 7 km three days in a row. i had a feeling i might overdo it, so i googled and did some reading...

...and surprised myself to find that, according to here, i've already pulled in enough miles (24 miles, 40km) in the last 6 days alone, to *start* actual training for walking a marathon!!!


i need to back 'er up, slow things down, and pace myself.

this is what i've plotted out for myself, 4 walks a week, with the following kms (each row is a new week, generally S T Th Sat; folowed by total for the week):

this week:
7 7 6 8; 28 (kms total)
7 6 7 9; 29 (anyone wanna go from campout -> furlong -> back to camp, saturday the 4th, with me? approx 9kms)
7 7 7 9; 30
7 7 7 10; 31
7 7 8 10; 32
7 7 8 11; 33
7 8 8 11; 34
7 8 8 12; 35
7 8 9 12; 36
7 8 9 13; 37
7 9 9 13; 38
7 9 9 14; 39
7 9 10 14; 40
7 9 10 15; 41
7 10 10 15; 42
7 10 10 16; 43
7 10 11 16; 44
7 11 11 16; 45
7 11 11 17; 46

km's subject to change. :D

so in three months i'll be back up to what i did this week... only with proper pacing and hopefully not overtraining.

the first day listed, sundays, stay at 7km because,
  1. i want to walk to or from church, and
  2. it provides a smaller km 'rest day' after the 'long walk' day, saturday.
but honestly, it will be - would *have* to be a miracle of God if i continue with this. this is so much my personality, to fall in love with something then go nuts with it and burn out.... hopefully pacing myself, and God's grace - if it's His will for me to continue - maybe... just *maybe*... this will work.... :D

i'm wondering if my asthma could handle the chlorine at the pool now.... i need something to do the other days! (if i'm not too pooped!)


a digital pedometer using google maps!!!

plot out your walking/running route on a map of your town and find out your kms!!!



Monday, June 22, 2009

just for funz

note: absolutely no filter/effect/funky stuff done to these pics!.....

it all started with just tryin' to get a pic on my webcam of my broken retainer....

hey that's kinda funny!!! ooooohhhh!!!!

but then it just degraded from that point on....

why, oh why, does it always do that?!



GOOOOD boogie

so, i decided to walk to prayer tonight. left at 5. about 5:20 i was notified there was no prayer, so i thought, and decided, well, i'm out for a boogie, so i might as well go for one!

hit the thornhill 4way at 5:40, paused for a couple minutes at the rest stop past the old bridge about 5:55, got to the overpass at 6:30 and decided i would go down the millenium trail instead of over the over pass and over to home.....got to the copperside 4way about 6:45, stopped for 5 minutes, then walked to a friends for a cup of water, got there about 7:10, got home at 7:25.

this is what my feet look like after a 2 hr and 25 minute hike around the highways and byways:

you can't really see how dirty they are in the pic, too bad! :P crocs let everything in, and then (what doesn't stick) right back out again, that's why i love 'em!

but my face is fresh, see? tired, but in a good way. :D

if i ever have any money to blow, maybe i'll invest in a pair of real hiking sandals... my crocs *are* wearing out what with all this walkin' and all....


got my morning puff on

puffy face. urg.

see the marks around my mouth from my cpap? the red spots on my forehead are from the cushion....

woke up with real bad breath too. the cpap dries my mouth out if i mouth breathe, and i've been doing a lot of that lately.

wanna wake up every morning to this? lol too bad i didn't catch [a pic of my hair] in it's molded head-brace state before i watered [ie wet] it down....


Sunday, June 21, 2009

o hokey croaking crud - whom shall i fear?

it may be catching up with me, or it may not be, it's up to God, but i may be *ahem* sorta fighting something off...

been feeling something niggling around the edges for a week or so. have been having tonsil stones, and some mild headaching and hot flushing. headache is bad enough to impair life today (drugs, gimme the drugs...) - took tylenol, and flushing is enough that i keep checking my temp, and even tho i feel off, it's totally normal. i was attributing it to sun exposure, but today my forehead (which is hot) was *not* exposed to the sun, and my neck (which is not hot at all) most definately *was*, so i can boot that theory, lol!

i'm not afraid of being sick. it can only happen when it's part of God's plan, and, well, God's plan is to prosper me and not to harm me, so it can only be for my benefit (in the long run). the worst that can happen is i die, in God's timing, and go to heaven. (so what can germs do to me? whom shall i fear?! lol)

and yes, i've been pretty sick, i'm not naive as to the awfulness of being sick. i was down and out with chronic fatigue syndrome for nearly 10 years (until [about the time] i came to Christ), i've had a prolonged bout with intestinal parasites (last fall), and heat stroke (2 summers ago) where i thought i was dying. when i had heat stroke i had deliriously awesome times with God, and with the parasite, i learned an awful lot about endurance. it's all good. :) i also have chronic asthma, and that reminds me constantly on what - or Who - my life depends.... oxygen? NOT!!!! :D


Saturday, June 20, 2009

headache, stress

hmm, i abandoned this post still unwritten (except for the title), and when i got home, it was 'posted' (blank). weird. go figure! :P

happy about moving, but stressed. gotta lean on God, all i can do. my strength: got none. gotta be him.

headache has gone, mostly (went for a walk and it was too bright out for my eyes, but after a while it eased, and so did any headache i had).

um, that's it on that!!!!


Thursday, June 18, 2009


it's officially decided - i'm moving!

it's available in july. i'll give my notice here for the end of july, and be moving stuff into the new place thru the month.

it's cheaper and.... it's time. i am metamorphizing!

God is good, i already have a line on a washer/dryer, and maybe a dishwasher, too. i'm hoping to find one of those outdoor locking sheds too, to put in my carport, for bike/gardening stuff, etc.

i'll prolly have a big garage sale towards the end of july, if anybody wants to co-op with me on that, let me know!!!

i'm also hoping to plan a housewarming party for august - i've got invites i've had since i moved out of the lazelle place that i've never used, this will be the fourth time i've moved, and dang it, this is gonna be the time i use them!!!!! LOL


Sunday, June 14, 2009


went for a bike ride on my new bike with machoo on may 19th (date courtesy my cell phones date stamp, lol). you can see my dandy little bike in the background of the first pic....

one of my favorite necklaces and one of my favorite pair of hoops.... brightness!!!! :D

my hair is funny from the vents in the bike helmet, i have a faux tri-hawk!!!!

these are on the quasi-pullout on skeena (or is it frank?) street, believe it or not *before* the river got really high.....

(...ahhhh, yes..... one needs a few good pics of one's self once in a while.... makes one feel actually... kinda *purdy*, lol...)

and then, today... i biked to church, all by myself. i was hot and sweaty when i got there, but the satisfaction of having arrived there on my own steam (with God's mighty grace, of course, lol) made it worthwhile the effort.

even though i *could* have gotten a flat tire, been sucked under a semi, been hit by an absentminded driver, or been eaten by a bear.....

i'm facing my (mom's) fears.... yes, indeedy!!!!! :D


i'm dyeing

the work in progress:

using tissue paper. idea from here and here.

the paper definitely bleeds. hopefully the vinegar i trotted to the store and carried back will set the color at least somewhat.... it definitely stains the hands!!!!!

will post the results in the next day or two. ...if there's any results to post about, anyways!!!!


Thursday, June 04, 2009

pop goes the 'sicle?

this gives a whole new meaning to the term 'pop-sicle', lol....

i just filled this tray and put it in the freezer 3-4 hours ago, and when i peeked in a few minutes ago, this is what i saw.....

see the little guy, back-row centre, popped out of his hole? full size (click image) you can tell the guy to his left (our right) is slightly popped too....

i swear, from the time i put the tray in fresh until a few minutes ago, i didn't even open the freezer, never mind touch the tray...

i have never ever ever seen this before!!!! have you?

srsly. check out the pics full size. (click on image). it's weird.... and kewl. :)


tweet tweet

i now twitter.



'unity is not found, it's forged'

i was recently discussing unity among the church body with someone, and they made a comment about just 'not having found unity' in the church - to which i responded, "unity is not found, it is forged."

it was one of those things that just popped out of my mouth with absolutely no forethought, and has stuck with me for days and days. it's a profound revelation to me, so it's one of those Spirit-of-God moments, not something that came from my own wrinkled brain. i've been mulling on it ever since.

"unity is not found, it is forged".... it takes heat, persistence, follow-through, and determination to hang in there when it's hot and uncomfortable. it's not one of those things that you can scan the horizon for, determine 'there's no unity to be found here', and move on to look elsewhere.

instead, we are to go where God tells us, dig in our heels, and become a part. participate. be vulnerable. get hurt... and forgive. and keep going, refusing to let the enemy drag you away from where God's called you. you *will* get hurt. the church *will* fail you. for the simple reason that they are humans, and *not* God himself. and honestly... you will hurt others, too... and as much as you wouldn't want to see the person *you* hurt give up because of it, don't give up because others hurt you. say, dammit, no matter what comes up, i'm not letting go of you!

it takes two to create unity. if one walks away, the other cannot hold on to them. it takes two holding on to each other 'come hell or high water' to form unity. that is the very definition of unity. it is not something that a person can walk up to another person and say, hmm, no unity here, and walk away. unity takes sweat, tears, determination, and sheer grit.

and it's what God calls us to.


Outcast, Adopted.

THIS BLOG IS IN NEED OF AN OVERHAUL. there are posts from years back i would not be able to post in good conscience now. i plan to overhaul the blog, and either delete or add a disclaimer to those posts. but that is gonna take time....

The Radical Summons: "
Therefore let us go to Him outside the camp and bear the reproach He endured. For here we have no lasting city, but we seek the city that is to come." Hebrews 13:13.

"The Spirit never loosens where the Word binds; the Spirit never justifies where the Word condemns; the Spirit never approves where the Word disapproves; the Spirit never blesses where the Word curses." —Thomas Brooks

‎"God receives none but those who are forsaken, restores health to none but those who are sick, gives sight to none but the blind, and life to none but the dead. He does not give saintliness to any but sinners, nor wisdom to any but fools. In short: He has mercy on none but the wretched and gives grace to none but those who are in disgrace. Therefore no arrogant saint, or just or wise man can be material for God, neither can he do the work of God, but he remains confined within his own work and makes of himself a fictitious, ostensible, false, and deceitful saint, that is, a hypocrite." --Martin Luther (W.A. 1.183ff)

i will not let You go: "Jacob's sense of his total debility and utter defeat is now the secret of his power with his friendly Vanquisher. God can overthrow all the prowess of the self-reliant, but He cannot resist the earnest entreaty of the helpless." --Albert Barnes

i will not let You go: "Jacob's determination did not flow from his strength, it flowed from his weakness." --Charles Leiter