Tuesday, January 15, 2008

tornadoes...a long overdue update

yup, it's alive! i'm still here, still alive, still kicking... going through some tornadoes right now (too big to explain) but it's all good, God is in control, i am not, hallelujah. but bleh, it stinks!

at the moment i am in hiding from tornadoes at some friend's house. thankYou God for friends.
friends who understand the un-understandable, they can't understand the unspoken, but they understand that.... y'know? lol.

got hit by tornadoes in october too, was flush out of contact with functionality, but with the open hearts, arms, and homes of friends, i got through it, i was home again in about three weeks. functioning in a first quasi-normality, then in the typical "stuffs shoved in the closets and i'm me again" kind of normalcy. what is normal, anyways?

tornadoes right now are not as constant as they were in october, very overwhelming, but with periods of normalcy betwixt storms. and i'm talking one mental moment to the next. need some neural-plasticity rewiring of neurons.... so i'm bunkering down at the moment with m&m. where i will be in an hour, a day, a week, i don't know, and i'm not going to think about it, lol.

just gotta let the love of God filter through.

today's word for my life from God:

isaiah 11:6 "The wolf also shall dwell with the lamb, The leopard shall lie down with the young goat, The calf and the young lion and the fatling together; And a little child shall lead them. 7 The cow and the bear shall graze; Their young ones shall lie down together; And the lion shall eat straw like the ox. 8 The nursing child shall play by the cobra's hole, And the weaned child shall put his hand in the viper's den. 9 They shall not hurt nor destroy in all My holy mountain, For the earth shall be full of the knowledge of the Lord As the waters cover the sea.
also
Ecclesiastes 3: 3 Sorrow is better than laughter, For by a sad countenance the heart is made better.

a funny thing: on the 10th, i read a card on my wall that says "happy birthday, lynne" (3rd).... and i thought, yeah, happy birthday lynne.... and happy deathday, mom...." (the one year anniversary of mom's 'passing' was that day.) and here today i read this in ecclesiastes 3:
1 A good name is better than precious ointment, And the day of death than the day of one's birth;

.... so one's 'deathday' is better to be celebrated than one's birthday! lol. God has such a cheeky sense of humor with me, sometimes! lol. how hilariously accurate was my 'random' thought that day! heehee.

..... ok, i'm too tired to think more about how to update y'all, so i'll sign off for now. maybe later i'll do some more. ciao guys, i love ya.
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