Monday, April 07, 2008

beep - too much information - beep

as i progress in life, i'm finding more and more that my childhood was difficult. i can't even begin to go into what manner of difficulty i'm talking about. it's too big.

and so i ask God,

"what am i supposed to do with this information?"

swallow it? grieve it? ignore it? -heck no can't do that one. there's no bootstraps to pull up in this one.

gotta walk through it. He will see me through.

it still sucks, though.

one day i'll be able to walk on top of the goo without sinking in to it... but for now, i need hip-waders. and good friends. :) and my support team. and God. :)

i just hate the headaches i've been having.

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on a positive note, though, i really enjoyed the wedding this weekend, took over 1000 pictures. gotta love my 4 gig memory stick! 'twas fun tagging along with ruth all day! thanks dahlin'!

ciao!
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3 comments:

  1. Darci11:25 a.m.

    Girl you will get through it. Psalms 23

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  2. Jenny6:25 p.m.

    I had issues from my childhood that I've dealt with for many years. It was only a few years ago that I realized that I needed to leave the past behind and just concentrate on living now. The past shaped me to the person I am,and there was nothing I could do to change the past, so my only option was to accept and love the person I am,while not focusing on the past.
    Ummm...make any sense??

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  3. Lynnie Ha10:29 p.m.

    it totally makes sense. i've lived my life ignoring my past, and thus not dealing with it. in order to love myself, i need to erase some old messages and re-write them, y'know what i mean? in order to do that, i need to find the messages, discover the lies... and replace them with the Truth, in my heart of hearts, not just my head. so it's all God's work to do. His timing has brought it about at *this* time, not sooner, not later. it's just difficult. thanks jenny, thanks darci. (((hugs)))

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