well, this morning i woke up a bit croaky. but i made it through worship (singin' backup) just fine... except for one cough that brought something up. then this afternoon i had two more productive coughs, and tonight it's taken off.... and i'm croaky and can feel it settling in my chest.
God's grace is huge. He saw me through this week until i did my singerly-duty. and now His grace for me includes fighting this cold. He is radically sovereign (not just a 'little' sovereign!) and this is part of His sovereign plan. He is simply amazing!!!
someone mentioned today that someone they knew was recently told that their cancer was 'of the devil'.... and not God's will. ---what a poor representation of our sovereign God!!!! and guilt inducing - the idea is that if we just 'catch hold' of God's will, it will go away... and if we don't, it won't. and thus, if it doesn't go away, it's our fault.
hmm, no. it's GOD's 'fault'... and yet there is NO 'fault' -whatsoever- in Him for sovereignly determining that we go through suffering.
i've been under that same condemnation and blame and responsibility much of my life.... so it makes me angry. i've gotten a revelation - am still getting a revelation! - of His sovereignty over that, and the freedom He has for us from that horrid, non-biblical mindset. who do ppl think they are to dump that load of garbage on one of God's precious children?!? arrrgh!!!!
God, help me direct my anger to it's true source - not the ppl that believe it, but 'every high thing that exalts itself against the knowledge of God' - principalities and powers and rulers of... y'know. the enemy.
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