Monday, September 28, 2009

croak, i'm a frog - our sovereign God!

all week i've had a nigglin' feeling in my throat, but nothing came of it... after the brian doerksen concert i had only half a voice for all the screamin' i did (for my rock-god God, not brian doerksen, lol). but the voice came back, and just kept having the tickle.

well, this morning i woke up a bit croaky. but i made it through worship (singin' backup) just fine... except for one cough that brought something up. then this afternoon i had two more productive coughs, and tonight it's taken off.... and i'm croaky and can feel it settling in my chest.

God's grace is huge. He saw me through this week until i did my singerly-duty. and now His grace for me includes fighting this cold. He is radically sovereign (not just a 'little' sovereign!) and this is part of His sovereign plan. He is simply amazing!!!

someone mentioned today that someone they knew was recently told that their cancer was 'of the devil'.... and not God's will. ---what a poor representation of our sovereign God!!!! and guilt inducing - the idea is that if we just 'catch hold' of God's will, it will go away... and if we don't, it won't. and thus, if it doesn't go away, it's our fault.

hmm, no. it's GOD's 'fault'... and yet there is NO 'fault' -whatsoever- in Him for sovereignly determining that we go through suffering.

i've been under that same condemnation and blame and responsibility much of my life.... so it makes me angry. i've gotten a revelation - am still getting a revelation! - of His sovereignty over that, and the freedom He has for us from that horrid, non-biblical mindset. who do ppl think they are to dump that load of garbage on one of God's precious children?!? arrrgh!!!!

God, help me direct my anger to it's true source - not the ppl that believe it, but 'every high thing that exalts itself against the knowledge of God' - principalities and powers and rulers of... y'know. the enemy.


Clover

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The Radical Summons: "
Therefore let us go to Him outside the camp and bear the reproach He endured. For here we have no lasting city, but we seek the city that is to come." Hebrews 13:13.

"The Spirit never loosens where the Word binds; the Spirit never justifies where the Word condemns; the Spirit never approves where the Word disapproves; the Spirit never blesses where the Word curses." —Thomas Brooks

‎"God receives none but those who are forsaken, restores health to none but those who are sick, gives sight to none but the blind, and life to none but the dead. He does not give saintliness to any but sinners, nor wisdom to any but fools. In short: He has mercy on none but the wretched and gives grace to none but those who are in disgrace. Therefore no arrogant saint, or just or wise man can be material for God, neither can he do the work of God, but he remains confined within his own work and makes of himself a fictitious, ostensible, false, and deceitful saint, that is, a hypocrite." --Martin Luther (W.A. 1.183ff)

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