sleeplessness

so last night i came home from the hospy at midnight.... got ready for bed, took meds etc... went on the puter until 1:30 then went to bed. ...first had to fold the socks all over my bed! laid down, couldn't sleep. so played sudoku until i thought i could sleep, still couldn't. felt restless and like i had a million ideas. went back on the puter. looked out the window, went to bed. couldn't sleep. stayed in bed anyways. it was prolly 4:30 or so before i got to sleep.

i woke up this morning at 11:30, blearily looked out the window and at the clock, kinda wondered whether my alarm had gone off or not, then realized i was supposed to be somewhere at 11:00. phoned and apologized, went to the washroom, sat down here.

feeling... kinda sick. i think i should take a cue from chris and go lounge. i feel like i've been running for days. go sleepies, maybe, catch up on rest.

what often happens when i feel like this - put everything out of my mind and go rest - is that i pick up my bible to read a bit, then some music flows into my ears, and i have to get up and find a pen so i can write lyrics down ... and i don't get any rest at all! funny thing is, tho, is i usually feel better anyways, lol.

so i'm gonna go lay down, push all the stuff in my head out, and see what form of rest God will give this weary one. who knows.

it could be anything..... yet as i wrote 'it could be anything', i'm feeling nauseous from an empty stomach. i may have to go cook lunch instead of lay down. once again push push push myself. *sigh*. just thinking about it is exhausting!

tired and hungry, the perfect combination to get cranky, lol!