Sunday, June 11, 2006

my Little Musical Miracle

today i did two things i've never really done before: i sang one of my God-songs in church, and i played the keyboard during worship. that's a miracle in itself! lol but that's not the miracle i'm talking about.

the miracle was that during practice and worship, when i was playing they keyboard, *i* knew where i balled up, all to often, tho of course most people wouldn't notice..... and sometimes i lifted off the keyboard and didn't play while i was getting my bearings... yet i could HEAR the keyboard, the chords, the sounds etc *even when there was not anything possibly coming from the keyboard*. it sounded like i came through the speakers. i kept feeling like i should look around and see who else was playing keyboard!!!!! lol. it was eeried alright, but beautiful and reassuring. it's like God was playing the chords He wanted me to play right in my head. WOW. it was way kewl. :D

so, the little memories i'm going to treasure today: someone said i'm so brave (i'm not! lol); someone saying i sounded like a coffeehouse punk rocker; someone saying i sounded like a cross between joni mitchell and tracy chapman (woo!); someone saying it sounded powerful; my pastor telling me like THREE WHOLE TIMES that it sounded great (that's signifigant to me!); and tons and tons of general compliments. it's so encouragine to hear those things, thank you all... and yet it's difficult, becuase i feel so embarrased about having anything directed towards me, y'know? cuz it's totally all God. it's not about me, it's all about Him. i didn't write the song, He gave it to me. i came to the keyboard feeling weak and feeble, and He was there, strong. i give Him all the glory!!!!!!

and special kudos to devin - the challenge of just getting up there and sharing something so intensely... personal... was much eased knowing that i wouldn't have to struggle with my stumbling guitar, i was able to flow, and you picked up the sound, the rhythm, so well. thanks muchly, bro.
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  1. Anonymous9:41 a.m.

    Wasn't there. BUT I loved it!!!

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