Wednesday, September 17, 2008

lynnie vs the giant

well, this is how i'm feeling about grammar right now:


...and this is how i'm feeling about taking this english class, in general:


(ain't anthropomorphizing great?)

i don't know what my hangup with doing my homework is, other than that my head is too busy as it is. why did i think my brain could tackle another 'piece of cake' on my plate? it's anything but.

i tell my self, i am allowed to fail. but am i fearing failure anyway?

i struggle when i don't understand something fully. i feel lost, like i want to understand but can't get it into the brain, so i'm working with my best guess and then not understanding why it's wrong.

(oh, them damned-to-the-north-pole clauses....)

sometimes i wonder if there is not a comprehension disability, because i had trouble with this as a kid too. (can't blame it on the meds, then!) ..... in one ear, out the other, nothing sticking.

but i'm going to try and stick it out, and not quit. because.... i am allowed to fail.

i am allowed to get a C- or a P or even an F.

just keep going. that in itself is success.

*******

i think i learn a lot simply through osmosis, so here's to hoping it will eventually 'stick'....


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