Wednesday, September 20, 2006

been thinking 'bout cursin'

aye, yes, the Lord has some surgery to do in my heart. cuz for some years i've valiantly restrained myself to speak appropriately (not cuss), but have mean thoughts towards people.

especially people who drive stupidly.

it's easy to call other people down, label them, critisize them, demean them, curse them.... without cussin'.

i think God's got me driving - a new driver - at this time in my life, cuz it's His timing to deal with this in me... to alter some of my heart issues that defile.

it used to upset me to hear christians use 'bad words'.... and it's not cool to speak crass and offend people and such, but it's not the big issue, y'know? it's what's harbored in our hearts, our attitudes, our heart towards others....

and at the same time, i'm feeling this anger towards the enemy and his legalism and lies and corruption.... and i want to curse.... him.

a curse is a ban, to bind, and i want to see him bound. so i'll belittle him, smash his face, break his teeth.... cuz he's who deserves it.

and if it means i speak a little brashly when i'm telling someone about how the enemy lies and decieves and corrupts, then so be it. stomp stomp stomp.

if you get rattled out of your complacency... so be it. stomp stomp stomp.

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THIS BLOG IS IN NEED OF AN OVERHAUL. there are posts from years back i would not be able to post in good conscience now. i plan to overhaul the blog, and either delete or add a disclaimer to those posts. but that is gonna take time....

The Radical Summons: "
Therefore let us go to Him outside the camp and bear the reproach He endured. For here we have no lasting city, but we seek the city that is to come." Hebrews 13:13.

"The Spirit never loosens where the Word binds; the Spirit never justifies where the Word condemns; the Spirit never approves where the Word disapproves; the Spirit never blesses where the Word curses." —Thomas Brooks

‎"God receives none but those who are forsaken, restores health to none but those who are sick, gives sight to none but the blind, and life to none but the dead. He does not give saintliness to any but sinners, nor wisdom to any but fools. In short: He has mercy on none but the wretched and gives grace to none but those who are in disgrace. Therefore no arrogant saint, or just or wise man can be material for God, neither can he do the work of God, but he remains confined within his own work and makes of himself a fictitious, ostensible, false, and deceitful saint, that is, a hypocrite." --Martin Luther (W.A. 1.183ff)

i will not let You go: "Jacob's sense of his total debility and utter defeat is now the secret of his power with his friendly Vanquisher. God can overthrow all the prowess of the self-reliant, but He cannot resist the earnest entreaty of the helpless." --Albert Barnes

i will not let You go: "Jacob's determination did not flow from his strength, it flowed from his weakness." --Charles Leiter